200 Calories - Randy - Book 1

Chapter 6: Page 3

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"Andy's pov

I didn't sleep, I just stared at the roof crying. I didn't feel anything. It was my first time and this is what he does. It was 7am and I needed to go to school but I didn't want to. I want to cry but I couldn't because I cried al the tears I had. I stood up, got changed and walked downstairs and sat at the table. Rye was talking to my mum when they came in, mum sat next to me and Rye tried to stay away.

Rye walked to school but mum drove me. I walked in with my bag over my shoulder, as I walked into class I saw Harvey and he smiled at me but I just ignored him and sat at a different seat. Class went on as normal, I did work so I could leave. After that class was done I walked out but soon was pulled into an empty class room by Harvey.

"What the fuck Harvey" I said, not in a good mood. "Why are you in such a mood?" He asked and I just huffed. "Nothing, I'm great" I said and walked out towards the bathroom. On the way I saw Ryan and his so called friends looking at me as Rye came over to me. "Andy can we talk" he asked. "You know what Ryan, fuck you" I said and slapped him. I slapped him and hit him constantly on his chest. "You mother fucker" I yelled and now everyone was looking and making a circle around us.

He tried to calm me down but I was so angry and I needed to get my anger out. "You (slap) Did (slap) This (hit) To (slap) Me (hit)". "Andy calm down" Rye said trying to grab my arms but I went mental and started hitting him harder. I started to cry and hit him, Harvey came over pulling me away, I was struggling against him. I eventually gave up and let Harvey carry me away, seeing Ryan get walked away with the principle.

I got taken to the office and me and Harvey went into a free room and he sat me down, I was still crying. "Andy what the hell happened to make you that angry?" He asked worried and put a hand on my leg. "It doesn't matter" I said and turned away, wiping my eyes on my hoddie sleeve. "Well it does matter because your obviously angry and upset, talk to me" He said and I pulled me legs to my chest and rested my head on my arms what were on my knees.

"Please Andy" he asked and looked at me. "H-He... We did it last night and then he just left me there" I said and started to cry again. "Oh And" Harvey said and pulled me into a hug. I sobbed into his chest, holding onto his shirt of dear life. "So what happened, why did he leave you there?" he asked. I calmed down a little bit then answered. "Well he topped because of his past and then after that I asked what this was and he just basically said it was a one time thing" I said and lay there, thinking about last night.

"Oh Andy, Maybe he didn't know what you meant or something" Harvey tried to make me feel better but it didn't. "He just doesn't like me since I said that we were over, after I found him in my bathroom and stuff. Ugh I hate myself" I said and he shook his head. "Don't you dare hate yourself Andrew Fowler, you have done so well getting better and I'm so proud of you" he smiled and I snuggled back into him, still tears flowing.

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Soon it was lunch and I needed the bathroom, I walked in and I was about to walk into the stall but I hear something, sobbing? Was somebody in here crying. "Hey are you okay" I asked but they didn't answer. "Hey" I knocked and pushed it open a bit but was shocked at what I saw. Rye was on the ground sobbing, blood gushing out of his deep wounds in his arm.

I started panicking and quickly ripped off my hoddie, wrapping it around his arm to slow the bleeding whilst I get some help. "Please, please help me he is bleeding out!" I screamed down the hall just out of the bathroom, I saw 3 teachers rushing towards me. They rushed in and started to help Rye.

They wouldn't let me near him for a while, soon an ambulance arrived and a crowd started to form around the bathroom. They put him on a stretcher as he was coming in and out of conciseness. As he was wheeled past me, he reached out his hand and I took it, forgetting about everything in that moment. "I'm sorry" he muffled. "Rye its okay, I promise its okay" I said as he got wheeled out and I was left there, my t-shirt that I was wearing under my hoddie was covered in blood.

I fell to my knees, sobbing because I know I caused this. It was all my fault, everything is always my fault. I felt Harvey pick me up, I screamed for him to let me go, not caring about who was watching. "Andy calm down please just breath" he whispered into my ear. "No let me go now!" I yelled, struggling against his arms but I didn't win. He carried me out to his car and put me in. I was still sobbing in my seat. He pulled into my house and I ran out of the car into my house and running into my mum's arms breaking down.

"Omg Andrew why is your shirt covered in blood, where's R- Oh Hell" She said and realised what happened. "R-Rye, and I-Its c-cause of M-Me" I sobbed into her arms. "Andy its not cause of you" Harvey said as he came in. "Would you like to go see him?" Mum asked and I nodded. We all got in our car and left for the hospital. I hope he's okay.

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See ya on the flip side <3

Greer xx