200 Calories - Randy - Book 1

Chapter 5: Page 1

(Trigger warning, vomit/bulimia, there will be many of these through out this book <3)

Andy's pov

I woke up and looked around when I remembered I was at Rye's house. I looked at the time and It was only 5:34am. I huffed and got up to go to the bathroom when I remembered all I ate yesterday. I panicked and rushed to the bathroom. I got on my knees in front of the toilet and stuck one of my fingers down my throat, it wasn't enough.

I stuck another one down and I gagged a bit, I then pushed them further and I felt the bile rise in my throat as I gagged. I did it one last time and finally threw up. I threw up again and again and again until I thought It was all gone. I heard a shocked noise behind me and I turned around so quickly to see little Shaun standing there.

"Are you okay Andy?!" Shaun asked as he rushed over to me. "Uh y-yeah I was just feeling a little sick, but I'm great now" I said with a smile on my face. "Do you want mummy, or Rye?" He asked concerned. I panicked. "NO, I uh, I'm feeling so much better now and I don't want to worry them okay, promise not to tell" I asked and he replied saying 'promise'.

After that I went out and for a run. Rye was still sleeping but I knew not for long, I got my shoes on and left the house.

Rye's pov

I woke up with no Andy next to me. I sigh and got up to pee and get changed. I bumped into Shaun as I was walking, he looked nervous/stressed. "You okay Shaun?" I asked and got to his level. "He made me promise not to tell" He told me. "Who?" I asked as I remembered that Andy wasn't here. "Andy" He replied. "Well its okay to tell if he is sick or something" I said knowing Shaun would tell. "I walked into the bathroom this morning and saw Andy with his hand in his mouth and he was throwing up" Shaun said.

I gasped and stood up. "Am I in trouble?" He asked. "No, your fine" I said and ran over and out of my house in only boxers and to Lesley house. I was pounding on the door and it was a little early, just past 7am. Soon Lesley answered and I told her everything. "Are we gonna send him back?" I asked. "We have no choice, he is relapsing" She told me. I knew Andy would be upset and angry but I don't care, his health is more important.

Lesley rang Brook and Jack and they were coming to pick him up. Lesley packed him a bag and walked with me over to my house to wait for Andy to come home. Soon me, mum and Lesley were all standing out when They arrived and we all waited for him. After about 10 minutes, Andy came running around the corner and he stopped dead in his tracks.

"Andy darling, we know you have not gotten better so we have no choice but to send you back" Lesley said and walked to him and pulled him into a hug as he collapsed crying. I just heard him begging her that he would eat and get better but we both knew that wasn't true. She was walking him to the car and I walked over to say goodbye. I walked to him and tried to hug him but instead he slapped me in the face.

I winced and looked at him, he was crying. "How could you do this to me again, I thought you love me" he cried and got into the car. and Lesley closed the door after putting his bag in there. "I do love you" I sobbed as I thought it was my fault. My mum pulled me away but I didn't want to go. "I love him, I love him!" I sobbed but it didn't work, it didn't let Andy be healthy.

Lesley was talking to Brook and Jack then they got in the car and left with Andy crying in the back. I ran inside and up the stairs, slamming my door. I didn't want this to happen again. I wanted to help him, I thought I could...but I couldn't.

I failed him. Now he hates me and I don't blame him.

Andy's pov

I got taken to the hospital, I stopped crying but I didn't say anything. I didn't feel Anything. I hate Ryan, I hate him so much because he sent me here, I thought he loved me but I was kidding myself, nobody could love this.