200 Calories - Randy - Book 1

Chapter 3: Page 2

Rye's pov

"We can be whatever you wanna be" I smiled and he blushed. "Can I be your b-boyfriend?" He asked shyly. "I would love that baby" I smiled and kissed him. After that, Andy finished his food and we snuggled until around 4 pm. Andy tried to get up but I didn't want him to leave.

"Rye I have to go piss" Andy groaned, I still didn't let go because I was comfy. "Ryan I'm gonna piss my pants," He said so I finally let go. "Please come back after," I asked and he agreed. He walked into the bathroom and closed the door. I started smiling to myself thinking about amazing he was, I started thinking about marriage and kids and the rest of your lives.

I kept waiting for him to come out of the toilet, but he didn't. I thought maybe he needed to go number 2 as well so I just waited. Brook came in and looked at me scared. "Where is Andy," He asked. "Oh he's in the toilet" I answered and he groaned. "He can't go to the toilet until 1 hour after he had a feed because he can throw it up," Brook said and I felt so guilty.

Brook tried to open the door but it was locked. "Andy it's me Brook, please open the door," Brook said as he knocked on the door and was on his radio asking for a key. "Go away" I heard a groggy voice say. "Andy please it's Rye, please," I said the last 'please' quietly. "Rye please, I just need time, I'm peeing," He said back but I knew he was probably throwing up. Soon a staff member came with a key. We opened the door and found Andy hunched over the toilet with his fingers down his throat.

"Andy no" I yelled but a staff member help me out. Brook called for backup and soon 3 other men came in. They pulled a screaming Andy from the bathroom and down the hall into a room I had never been in before. Lesley was called and she came quickly. I was crying in the waiting room because it was all my fault, I should have known. "Rye Honey" Lesley said as she came over to me and started rubbing my back as my hands were over my face crying.

"Hey it's not your fault," She said and pulled me into her side. I just stared blankly at the wall, I let her down, I let Andy down, I let Brooklyn down. Lesley called my mum and mum came to get me. The whole car ride home I didn't say anything, I just looked out the window. I was thinking about my and Andy's life together when he was by himself throwing up and punishing himself.

"Rye" I heard it broke me out of my thoughts. I looked at mum. "We are home," She said in her soft loving voice, my mother and father are amazing parents but I just don't deserve them. I nodded and walked inside, up the stairs and into my bedroom. After about an hour mum came upstairs carrying a plate of food but I wasn't hungry.

"Rye you have to eat Honey," She said and put the plate on my desk, then sat next to me on my bed. I can't tell mum what I was doing because I haven't come out yet. "Rye it's not your fault," She told me, I was just staring at the wall. She sigh, "Look Rye, I know you blame yourself but, Andy is the best place he can be okay, and I know its hard, imagine how it is for Lesley, but you need to be strong for Andy okay," She said, kissed my head and walked out of my bedroom and downstairs.

I thought for a long time, about everything. Maybe he did that because he didn't want to be my boyfriend, but he is the one who asked. I decided to ring him.

(R - Rye. | A - Andy.)

A - Hey Rye

R - Hey

(Long pause)

A - Hey look I didn't mean to scare you

R - No it's okay...

A - Please don't blame yourself mum told me you were crying

R - It's nothing

A - I'm so sorry Rye

R - Don't be just please get better please Andy (I said started to quietly cry)

A - Rye baby don't cry I will try so hard as I can

R - Promise

A - Promise I will talk tomorrow are you gonna come tomorrow or did I scare you too badly

R - No you didn't Fovvs I will come tomorrow

A - Okay see you tomorrow

R - Yep bye

A - Bye

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Andy's pov

I just felt like Rye would be ashamed of me because I felt so fricking fat so I needed to get this out of me. When Brook came in and got me with random other men I started to scream because I just wanted it out, I saw Rye's eyes were red and puffy, I blamed myself and I know he blamed himself for me.

After the call, I had to eat and my mother was here, she was staying the night. Mum got real food and I had my feed again, I didn't taste anything but I always felt full and it was so gross. "You okay Andy" My mother's sweet voice knocked me out of my thoughts. "yeah," I said, I looked at my phone and it said 6 pm but I was already so tired. I wish Rye stayed the night.

After we ate, well mum ate. Brook got a spare bed and bring it in for mum to sleep on. I was already so tired but I still needed to shower, I hated this part. I walked into the bathroom and Brook had to be in there to make sure I didn't try anything as I just had my feed. "Brook please, I won't do anything" I begged him to leave because I didn't want him to see me naked.

"No Andy I have to be in here because everyone says stuff like that and then they throw up, so just take your shower," He said I looked down. "If it makes you feel better I won't look at that part of you, okay but just hurry because you look tired," He said, I nodded feeling better that he wasn't gonna look at... those parts of me.

I turned on the shower, I took my clothes off, Brook's eyes stayed on my chest and face, thank god. I got into the shower quickly washing my body and getting out. I wrapped a towel around me and walked out into my bedroom where my clothes were. Mum looked at my ribs and sigh. "Well you can't see all of them anymore which is good sweetie" She smiled, I nodded hating it.

Once I was in my pj's I got into bed and drifted off to sleep with my mum asleep in the bed next to me.

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Poor Fovvs, I feel bad for him but let's just hope he started to get better.

See ya on the flip side <3

Greer xx