200 Calories - Randy - Book 1

Chapter 7: Page 4

(Trigger warning, In this Andy has to go back to the eating clinic and he was VERY not happy about that, also talk of rape and sexual abuse so if you don't like a lot of yelling and crying and stuff, go to the next page, please keep yourself safe xx)

Andy's pov

It was now day 3 in the hospital, I haven't spoken since I got here, not even to a nurse. Rye hasn't left me, he is really worried but I could tell it was fake, just like everyone's concern. I was still facing the wall, I had only gotten up to go to the bathroom then straight back, I haven't eaten in 3 days and I feel great, well hungry but great.

Rye has tried everything to get me to eat, but I ignored him. He even forced it into my mouth but I spat it out all over him, it was funny. At night when he thinks I'm asleep, I can hear him crying, and talking to himself. Saying things like, He's an awful boyfriend, he don't deserve me, he just wanna die. When he said that I almost said something but I kept quiet. He hasn't really eaten anything either, but I want him to.

It was now 1am on the 3rd day being in hospital and Rye was asleep I think, I turned around to look at him, he was on the chair and his head in his hands. His breathing was quiet so I think he's asleep. Its the first time he has really slept at all since I got here. He always stayed awake to make sure I was okay.. maybe he really does care. It almost Christmas to, then 2 months after that I will be 18 and I will get to make my own decisions so they wont be able to take me to the eating disorder clinic without my consent.

I heard Rye stirring then he opened his eyes to look straight into mine. "Hey" he said and walked over to me, grabbed my hand. I was very week and I couldn't be bothered pulling it away. "Your really pale Andy" he said worried, I looked into his eyes and I saw, scared, worry, hurt, sadness. All of what I thought he was faking but he wasn't. I nodded. "Do you want a drink?" he asked, I nodded again. He got up and walked out the room for a minute. He then came back with a cup of water and helped me to sit up. Once I was sitting up he handed me the water, but my hand was shaking so he held it for me.

I took a few sips then pushed it away. He put it on the counter and then sat down next to me. "Andy, I know you don't wanna listen to me, or your mum or even the nurses but please, just eat something. I'm scared I'm gonna lose my best friend, my boyfriend, the only person who really excepts me for me, please if not for me, then yourself just please eat" he said, tears running down his face. I grabbed his hand and kissed it. "I will try" I said, my voice horse and sore. "That's all I ask baby" he said and pulled me into a huge hug but not so it hurts me.

He was about to go and lay in the chair but I grabbed his hand. "Um, please stay here" I said and moved so he had room, he smiled and nodded as he slowly got in next to me. I wrapped my arms around him as I was really cold, I lay my head on his chest and then I felt myself drifting off.

"Andy wake up" I heard as I was very gently shaken. I opened my eyes and saw mum and... Brooklyn, shit. "Hey Andy" mum said and sat next to me. I didn't wanna hear what Brooklyn had to say because I kinda knew. "Andy, we have noticed your getting very skinny again, have you been eating what you should have?" Brook asked. "Yeah" Is all I said. "Well your losing weight very quickly and its very worrisome so we are thinking about taking you back in to the clinic" Brook said and I immediately burst out crying.

"Please don't take me back there, its hell!" I screamed and wrapped my arms around Rye's torso with all my might. "Andy your very sick" Brook said trying to get me to listen but I was having none of it. "No!" I screamed and Rye pulled me into a hug. "Andy calm down, your heart can't take to much stress other wise you could have another heart attack" Mum said but I didn't wanna go. "Rye please don't let them take me" I said and looked into his eyes, he was crying as well.