Joanne ~ Back in time

Chapter 52~I had a...

{Joe's POV}

Thankfully Dianne walked away from me and not out of school she was thankfully in the second lesson of music hopefully I would get another chance to talk to her.

{Dianne's POV}

I don't want to leave but I don't have a good enough reason to stay. I need a reason. Please, Joe, give me a reason. If only I could say this out loud. All I know I need to sing right now. I don't know what to sing. Think Dianne think. I can't just stand up there like a moron.

Mr Light-"Dianne"
D-"Urm yep"

I just started singing the first song that came to my head.

Just like last time a few people went before Joe.

Joe always looked so content when he was performing. I loved watching him sing he was always so good. The remaining people went in our class. The bell went.

{Joe's POV}

The lesson ran over and when the lesson ended people flooded out of the doors Dianne is one of the lasts to leave. I ran after Dianne.

J-"Wait Di"
D-"What Joe"
J-"You can't go"
D-"Joe I've got to go"
J-"Di please I want you... Di I need you please you can't go"
D-"Joe I have to"
J-"No you don't... What about the girls"
D-"They have their foster parents"
J-"No Di"
D-"Joe I'm going"
J-"What now you're going to walk out on them just like your father did with you"
D-"HOW DARE YOU COMPARE ME TO MY FATHER"
J-"HOW DARE YOU LEAVE... Di please I want the baby I want our family with Macklynn and Eponiné please Di I want you"
D-"Joe I...I" Dianne started to cry. Why was she crying?
J-"Please stay I want the baby Di I'm not scared anymore"
D-"Joe"
J-"Please Di"
D-"Joe I... had a miscarriage"
J-"What"
D-"Please don't make me say it again" Dianne turned to walk away but I grabbed her arm to stop her.
J-"You had a... I'm so sorry" I dropped to my knees. At this point, we were both crying. My head rested against Dianne's stomach.
J-"It's all my fault"
D-"Joe"
J-"It's all my fault I left you on your own"
D-"It's not your fault Joe Mother Nature can sometimes just be a b*tch" Dianne helped me stand up. We looked at each other dead in the eye.
J-"I'm so sorry Di"
D-"I'm sorry to Joe"
J-"Why"
D-"I lost our baby"
J-"No you didn't like you said Mother Nature can sometimes be a b*tch... why wasn't I there to help you"
D-"Joe it's okay"
J-"I'm sorry about before you left I'm so sorry Di"
D-"Joe it's okay" I remembered what Dianne had said right before she left about being alone.
J-"Di I love you and I'm sorry that your alone but because I love you I should let you move on and forget about me... you can leave I won't hold you back anymore"
D-"Joe I'm not alone I have you and I don't want to move on, I want you, I need you, Joe, please"
We both burst into tears hugging each other we slowly pulled out of the hug as we did our eyes met quickly followed by our lips.
J-"I love you Di"
D-"I love you more Joey"
J-"Not possible... let's go home"
D-"You're my home Joe, you, I look at you and I am home, you're my home"
J-"I'm so sorry I will spend forever making it up to you but for now I just want to hold you in my arms"

We went home. Home. It's ours again. I had Dianne back and I was happy. Hell, I was more than happy I was ecstatic. We were sat in the living room I had just gone to get Dianne a drink I came back into the room and handed it to her.

J-"Di you left me"
D-"Joe"
J-"Oh no I'm not angry that came out wrong"
D-"Phew you scared me then"
J-"Di you did though, you left me but you left me because I wasn't there even when I promised I would be"
D-"..."
J-"You gave up on me and honestly I don't Blame you"
D-"I didn't give up on you I gave up on my ability to be in love and not get hurt but by trying to protect myself I hurt both of us"
J-"Oh ... I love you so much please don't let me go"
D-"I won't"
J-"I'm so sorry about the baby"
D-"I'm sorry too"
J-"We're gonna be okay though"

We sat on the sofa cuddling for hours I did most of the talking.

J-"You haven't talked much about what happened"
D-"I don't know what to say"
J-"Whatever is on your mind"
D-"Okayyy"
J-"..."
D-"Fine because I don't know how to say what I feel I'll sing how I feel"
J-"Okay"

I joined in singing eventually. It felt amazing to sing with Dianne again after all this time.

D-"Look Joe leaving you was probably the worst choice I've ever made but I'm not sorry I left"
J-"Dianne"
D-"Leaving you was horrible but I'm not actually sorry that I left... it made me realize how much I want you how much I need you how much I love you. It made me realize I can't live without you I can't breathe without you"

I smiled before I got up and walked towards Dianne to kiss her passionately. I had missed holding her in my arms, I had missed her touch and the way she makes me feel, I missed feeling happy, I had missed Dianne.

J-"Just to be clear your not going anywhere are you"
D-"No I'm not leaving"
J-"Good"

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