Joanne ~ Back in time

Chapter 47~Oh Sh*t

{Dianne's POV}

Everything was awkward even sleeping was awkward. Joe woke up again before me which is really unusual on a Monday morning since Joe hates school so I normally have to beg him to get out of bed. I got ready like normal apart from this time there were no distractions like Joe kissing me or hugging me or showering me in compliments it was silent. I miss Joe. Yes I was in the same house as him and I slept next to him but Joe isn't here at all. I have no clue where his mind is at all because he won't talk to me. Anyway, about that bold statement, it's all sorted and ready to go.

I walk downstairs and call me spoilt but Joe hasn't made me breakfast like he normally does and I know you shouldn't expect things off of people but Joe made me breakfast and the girls breakfast when they are here is almost like a tradition it's something that happens Joe loves doing it and me and the girls also love it. I made myself toast at least this time Joe doesn't walk out of a room every time I walk into it. We ate breakfast in the same room at the same table, opposite each other but we weren't eating it together. We were out of sync and I had a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach that something unexpected is about to happen.

I went back upstairs to change, Joe had already got changed.

{Joe's POV}

I waited for Dianne at the door. Next to the door was a suitcase. That's strange but maybe it was left here from when the girls went to their dance competition.

J-"DIANNE YOU LEFT THE GIRLS' SUITCASE DOWN HERE FROM THE COMPETITION"

I stood at the door looking out onto the front lawn. Dianne came downstairs and stood next to me. I walked out of the door to get into the car. I took two steps before realising that Dianne wasn't moving.

{Dianne's POV}

J-"What are you doing we're gonna be late"
I shook my head.
D-"You're unbelievable you haven't talked to me and you've left me feeling like shit" I put my head in my hands.
J-"..."

Joe walked closer to me and took my hands out of my face and kissed my forehead before bringing me into a hug.
Tears start to slowly roll down my face.

J-"I love you D"
D-"I love you too Joey"

I burst out crying. I think I know what I'm gonna and have to do. My plans have changed. That bold statement is no longer to make a point it is actually going to happen. I pushed away from Joe.

J-"Whats wrong TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG"
D-"..."
J-"Please"
D- "I HAVE NOTHING, Joe... I'm all alone and I don't know what I'm doing"
J-"..."
D-"Ever since I met you so many things have disappeared my ability to live alone, the ability to be strong when I'm alone, the ability to breathe when you're not around, it's all gone Joe it's all gone because of you... I have nothing I'm alone"
J-"You have me"
D-"Do I because you seem to catch up in your feelings to realise that I may be feeling something to... Joe, I'm alone because of you"
J-"..."
Joe looked down at the floor. I walked up to the suitcase and grabbed it. Joe looked up from the floor and into my eyes.
D-"I'm leaving"
Joe grabbed my arm to stop me.
J-"What were breaking up"
D-"I'm just...I'm just leaving... so yes"
J-"I thought you loved me"
D-"I love you enough to let you go, Joe"
J-"You're not leaving me"
D-"I can't stay Joe"
J-"I love you and you're supposed to love me"
D-"I do love you, Joe"
J-"Don't say that say goodbye how am I supposed to live when I know that there's a girl wandering around somewhere in the world that loves me and I love her back so much"
D-"Joe I don't know but I've got to go"
J-"Di no"

{Joe's POV}

I grabbed onto Dianne's arm and tried to hold her but I was too scared that I would hurt her so I let go. I let her go.
J-"Di Please... I promised I would love you care for you and protect you"
D-"But you didn't"
J-"... but I will"
D-"Joe please just stop lying, I beg you to stop making promises that you know you can't keep... Joe please"

Dianne walked out of the door and didn't look back.

J-"Dianne... DIANNE"

I was stood at the top of the steps. Her car had just gone out of the driveway. I sat down at the top of the steps. At first, I felt like I was losing my breathe then tears started to roll down my face. I may have just lost the love of my life. I am in shock. I thought Dianne and I were invincible. I thought we could get through anything. Maybe I was wrong. Actually, I'm not wrong. What have I done? Dianne and I are invincible and can get through anything but the past few days I left Dianne to get through things on her own. Dianne is strong and smart and she has done what is best for her and ultimately our baby which is to get away from me. Stone cold-hearted me. How could I be so awful to her? My parents wouldn't be angry because I got Dianne pregnant they would be angry with the way I treated her. I ignored her because it hurt me to look at her. But by me ignoring her would hurt her even more than it would hurt me. What the hell have I done? I need to fix this!

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