Joanne ~ Back in time

Chapter 43~Love You

{Joe's POV}

The car journey was long. Well, the same distance it just felt longer because of the cloud of sadness that hung above us. I knew the time would come sooner or later but it didn't stop me from dreading it. It feels quite without them. We arrived at the house and we opened the door. A gust of happiness and laughter came flying out. It felt as if I would never feel any happiness ever again. I turned and looked at Dianne and smiled. She was my happiness. She was my original source of happiness and she will remain my source of happiness. Her red hair, her stunning smile, her delicate cheeks everything about her made me happy. The way any room she would walk into instantly lit up or how her smile could cure any sadness. It sure cured mine. We walked upstairs and put our bags away.

D-"Hey, you okay"
J-"Yeah"
D-"Wanna talk about it"
J-"I wanna talk about us"
D-"Okayyy"

Dianne dragged out the y, I knew she didn't quite understand what I was getting at. We went and sat on the bed.

D-"So what about us do you wanna talk about"
J-"Well I wanna tell you what I feel"
D-"Okay"

I squinted my eyes as I stared at Dianne trying to figure her out.

D-"What"
J-"I'm telling you how I feel and you're not freaking out"
D-"Yep"
J-"You really are amazing aren't you"

Dianne giggled and her cheeks flushed a light shade of pink.

D-"Thanks"
J-"I'm scared, I'm petrified yet I'm happy and I don't know what to do"
D-"Joe I'm not qualified to tell you anything medical but I think it's because you feel loved and your scared the feeling will go away"
J-"..."
D-"I'm not saying you need it or anything but I think it would be best if you got a therapist or a counsellor because you have a lot of emotions and I love hearing what you are feeling but when it's negative emotions I don't know how to help you because I'm not qualified but I think a professional could"
J-"..."
D-"You're not going there because you need help your more going there because you need advice and anyway help is good"
J-"You know what Okay"
D-"What"
J-"Okay I mean I never went to see one after my parents died and I never talk about my emotions to anyone but you and sometimes that can be a burden and don't lie and say it's not because it is and I don't want it to be"
D-"..."
J-"I have a tendency to be stubborn and want to sort out my own problems but sometimes you need help to sort out your problems as you said"
D-"Yeah"
J-"Thank you"
D-"No problem I love you well too much to see you in pain"
J-"Another problem is I love you more"
D-"Yeah you see that's not possible"

We both laughed, something we never failed to make each other do. Stood up and walked out of the door towards the stairs, Joe stopped just before we went down them.

J-"Anyway seen as we're alone tonight wink wink" Dianne giggled. "I thought I could cook you dinner"
D-"And what will you be cooking for me"
J-"Spaghetti bolognese" I tried to say in an Italian accent.
D-"Ooo very nice, where did you get your inspiration from"
J-"Yesterday the girls and I were watching lady and the tramp"
D-"Knew it would be a Disney movie"
J-"Well they're the best"
D-"I do agree"
J-"Urm you better"

{Dianne's POV}

Joe walked over to me. Our bodies touching and our faces millimetres apart. He looked at my lips then back at my eyes. He blinked and his peaceful blue eyes were replaced with lust-filled oceans. We both quickly leaned in. His warm, delicate lips in sync with mine. This time we didn't have to stop. He slowly lifted me off the ground as I gently jumped into his arms. My legs were tightly wrapped around his waist as he turned around and walked back to our bedroom. He placed me down on the bed not breaking the kiss. He slowly unbuttoned his shirt as I slowly unbuttoned his trousers...

We walked downstairs Joe in only his boxers and me in Joe's shirt from before.

J-"I need to get on with cooking"
D-"Yeah you do I'm starving"
J-"Well you are about to witness the greatest thing of all time"
D-"What's that"
J-"Me cooking"
D-"I feel like your getting a little too overconfident"
J-"Just you wait and see Buswell, just you wait and see"
D-"If you say so, Sugg"

Eventually, Joe finished cooking, it took him so long because he was to busy making me laugh which I'm not complaining about. Oh no! He was right.

{Joe's POV}

D-"Maybe you weren't being overconfident"
J-"Thank you I told you so"
D-"I know you were right"
J-"Hey it the first time I've been right in this relationship"
D-"No it's not"
J-"No your right, I was right when I knew I was going to fall head over heels in love with you"

Dianne smirked, the same smirk that I fell in love with, the same smirk that I get to look at for the rest of my life. The same smirk that Macklynn and Eponiné have and so will our future children. God, I wish my parents were here to see me now. I'm so happy and for the first time in my life, I'm sure of what I want. I'm sure I want Dianne and I'm sure that I want to spend the rest of my life loving her and everything about her. Her smile, her smirk, her face, her sense of humour, her.

J-"God, I love you"
D-"Too bad I love you more"
J-"We can have this argument for the rest of our lives and I will be right I love you more"
D-"You have no idea how much you've changed my life"
J-"In a good or bad way"
D-"Good, definitely good. You've made me smile and laugh and be my self. Sure I smiled before and was happy but my happiness never lasted but now it does and that's because of you. Because you loved me"
J-"I could never and will never stop loving you Dianne Buswell and I can't wait for the day when I say that sentence and it doesn't end with Dianne Buswell it ends with Dianne Sugg"

My eyes watered up as I saw tears fall from Dianne's burnt green eyes.

D-"I love you, Joe"
J-"I love you more D"
D-"Not possible"

I chuckled and Dianne giggled.

D-"I'm always right"
J-"Yeah about most things but this one your not"
D-"I love you more"
J-"No I love you more"
D-"No..."

The argument about who loved the other one more continued into the night. I wish she knew that I was right and I loved her more. As I thought about it I laughed, we both sound so silly. I could seriously have that argument with her the whole of our lives I would never back down because I love her and care about her so much. When I think about losing her my heart physically aches like a dead weight. She is my world and everything around it.

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