Save Me

28. Betrayal

Molly is feeling isolated and out of place being back with her family. Will she be able to find peace within herself and the others?

I was home, straight back to cold, damp darkness.

It was silent for the most part, sometimes I heard footsteps on the grass outside.

But, the sun didn't shine on me now for a reason.

They all hated me.

Tara looked at me like she never had before, no anger, no sadness just shock, like I was a complete stranger.

I can't describe that feeling, it wasn't simple loneliness or guilt, I felt as though I had no place in world where my two feet on the ground were solid.

I had once thought that the Sanctuary was my home and by extension Negan but now thinking about that place, it just felt estranged to me.

Now, the exact same feeling was felt for this place.

I shivered when the cool breeze zipped through the bars, though I had always preferred the cold to the raging heat of  Virginia.

It was bad for me to be alone, as in darkness I tended to dwell on my deepest thoughts.

I couldn't cry anymore, a part of me thought that there were just no tears left.

I was numb.

I was numb to physical emotion, but that didn't mean that my emotions didn't still overwhelm me.

Memories of Negan flashed through my mind when I rubbed my neck, now sore from the hard floor.

His lips, his kisses, his warm hands, everything.

I clenched my fists and sighed in frustration.

How could I let myself become so naive, so stupid?!

When I touched my chest, where my locket had once sat, I thought of Tara and how losing the locket had actually predicted how I would lose her.

She had every right to hate me though, as did Maggie, as did Rosita, I had failed them all.

My own weak emotions had overwhelmed me, maybe that's what caused Simon to... I couldn't finish that thought.

I couldn't make myself go back there, to that space.

Suddenly, the main door squeaked open and I jumped up to my feet, squinting my eyes to see who it was.

Jesus.

He walked over to me and without a word he unlocked and opened the cell door.

I stood in front of him as he just looked me over as if I was unrecognisable.

He looked down as he said quietly, 'Rick wants you at Alexandria, it's probably best for you know...'.

I just nodded.

He held my arm gently as he guided me up the stairs and out into the sunlight.