Save Me

39. Hard and Slow Path

Both Molly and Negan would have to face the difficult path to their happiness. But was that what they both wanted?

Negan's POV//

Gabe had just come to see me for our weekly chat which he took over after Rick.

The fucker wanted my 'confession' or to see my progress into becoming someone they wanted.

He tried to get me to do some meditation shit but I just bounced a ball Judith had given me against the wall.

I wasn't gonna give him shit, I had changed, that was true, but I wasn't about to become this fairy fucking godmother.

Soon enough he grew tired and left my cell, slamming the door behind him.

He stormed off and while I didn't notice at first, I saw a small gap between the door and the wall.

He had left it open.

It was early in the morning so I knew people would be still in their houses.

I pushed open the door slowly and smirked at my freedom.

I grabbed a nearby shovel from outside the cell and made my way to Michonne's house.

I knew she was still at Hilltop.

I opened the door slowly and crept up the stairs, opening all the doors till I came across the door which was where I first held Judith.

It was now her bedroom, she wasn't there but I looked around and saw the painting above her bed.

It was a drawing she had made of Michonne, Rick, Carl, RJ and her, all holding hands.

I sighed, feeling guilty about Rick and Carl. I rested my hand against the bedpost and felt a chain.

I looked down and saw a compass.

I grabbed it, put it around my neck and took a rucksack from downstairs, filled it with tomatoes and some tins of food from the pantry then made my way towards the side fence.

I needed to escape.

I wanted to go back to the Sanctuary and Michonne had told me of its ruin so I knew no one would be there.

I started to climb up the wall and threw my shovel over the side just as I was stopped by a voice.

'Thought you were smarter than this. Guess not...' she said.

It was Judith.

I turned around and saw her pointing a gun at me.

I chuckled, saying 'you're not gonna shoot me kid'.

'Um yeah, I will' she retorted.

I sighed.

'I'm not going back, so you just pull that trigger if that's what you're gonna do lil' lady' I replied, clinging onto the wall.

She cocked the gun at this point.

I continued, 'how bout this, how bout I go my way and you go yours and we never see each other again'.

It hurt me to say this.

'How bout no' she retorted as she ushered me down with her gun.

I chuckled as I climbed back down and stood facing her.

'You know when your mom and dad, when they locked me up, they told me that I would be good for somethin'. That I would help people see that things could change and they did. Holy shit did they ever. But, for everybody but me. I mean look around, Alexandria is a goddamn wonderland! But my part? It's just four walls and a bed pan. Just tell Molly I tried okay?' I said softly.