Save Me

72. This Is Love

Molly reveals to Negan the secret she has been keeping while she wrestles with other people's opinions. Lydia and Molly find a new level to their relationship as Lydia comes to terms with what Molly's secret will mean for her.

A month later...

I held this secret close to my chest for almost a month.

I had told no one but Siddiq and everyday I found myself close to telling Negan but never able to make the words come out.

The morning sickness was still awful, every single morning I would run to the bathroom while Negan and Lydia were asleep and I would hurl into the toilet.

Siddiq gave me some herbal teas and medication that supposedly suppressed the sickness which helped slightly but it was getting to the point where I could no longer hide it.

Siddiq told me that I must have been around seven weeks pregnant and that Michonne had been asking him about me because of all my visits to the hospital.

Negan didn't have a clue though because from the field where he worked, the hospital couldn't be seen so I could slip in and out relatively quietly.

I knew I had to let people know now, even though I dreaded the reactions they would have.

I held my hand to my stomach instinctively and when I registered what I was doing and that I was walking where people could see me, I swiftly put my arm down and checked to see that no one was watching.

I smiled at people as I walked past and then I saw Negan, crouched down and tending to the vegetables.

'Hey darlin' he said sweetly as he looked up.

I inhaled nervously and said 'hey, can we talk?' as I nudged my head for him to follow me back to the house.

He nodded with a confused look as to why I was acting weird.

'You know, I can't have sex right now because I'm at work' he whispered jokingly as he chuckled.

I let out a small laugh with a smile as I ushered him inside as we stood in front of each other.

'Lydia's at training, right?' I asked anxiously as Negan nodded 'mhm'.

'Something's up...' he said questioningly as he gazed at me with a confused expression.

I smiled and looked down as I twiddled my thumbs.

'I have to tell you something, but I need you to promise me that you won't say anything until I'm finished' I said seriously.

Negan chuckled and said 'alright'.

I took a deep breath and stopped myself from shaking as I just bit the bullet and said it.

'I'm pregnant. About seven weeks actually, but I just wanted to be certain that there wouldn't be any complications before I got your hopes up and I know that we haven't ever talked about this but it's happened so...' I said hastily as I barely stopped for breath.

I looked down the entire time, too nervous to see what his reaction would be.

He was silent for what felt like a lifetime after I stopped talking and that was when I looked up to see him smiling with tears in his eyes which made me tear up too.

I wiped my eyes and chuckled out the words 'say something'.

'You told me not to interrupt you' he said jokingly as he smiled widely and a tear rolled down his cheek which made me roll my eyes as I giggled.

He started to cry as he stepped towards me and pulled me into his arms as he cradled my head against his.

'I love you so damn much' I said breathlessly in between tears.