Save Me

36. Gone

Molly had to face reality and some harsh home truths. It would always be hard digging up the past, but she needed to move on. But, would Negan be the one to help her?

1 week later...

I returned with more clarity and confidence than ever before.

I just wanted to move on and if hearing what he had to say was what I needed then so be it.

I hopped down from the truck and made my way to the cell, pulling my locket out over my t shirt so he could see it.

I opened the door forcefully and stepped through.

I folded my arms and stood in front of him.

He looked up slowly and smiled as he walked forward to stand before me, only a bar separating us.

'Tell me' I said softly as his eyes gazed back at mine.

If I wasn't so focussed on the task at hand, I would have dissolved into a pool of liquid right then and there.

His eyes always had that effect on me.

His smile now evaporated as he wrapped his hands around the bars to get closer to mine.

'I don't regret what I did back then, to your friends' he said seriously.

I scoffed and shook my head.

'Of course you don't...they were my family Negan! Glenn and Abraham were my family' I argued.

'Rick would have done the same, we both know that. Hell, you would have done the same and you did! We've always been joined in that way' he replied sternly.

'I'm nothing like you. We killed your people because you were tyrants, you used people. So don't for one second think that what we did and what you did were the same. I know you cared about your people, but you didn't love them, not like I loved Glenn and Abraham. I would have died for them, you know that. I thought you got that when I came to the Sanctuary' I replied sternly.

He watched me intensely as he hung on every word.

He continued, 'I get that now, I didn't before. But, one thing that has remained is my regret for hurting you. You were the one person I loved more than anything and I hurt you the most'.

'Fuck, I'm so sorry Molly for-' he said softly, just as he stopped himself from what he really wanted to say.

'For...everything that happened there' he said softly.

I watched him attentively, he looked genuinely pained.

I held my locket in my hands and showed him, needing to change the conversation.

'Why did you have this?' I asked tearfully.

'It was the last piece of you that I had left...' he replied quietly.

I sighed as I moved away from him. I was frustrated with my love for him and his love for me.

'What do you want me to say? You lied to me. I mean, God! Since when do you follow orders?! So what? Michonne tells you to push me away and thats it?!' I shouted.

'I know you'll never forgive me, I know that. I just want you to know that I love you. I always will and that will never change. You know that, that's why you came back, a part of you didn't believe what I said. I just wanted you to be happy and I knew you couldn't have that with me' he replied calmly.

'That wasn't your decision to make!' I replied.

'I was in pain Molly! I felt like I wanted to fucking die after what I did...' he yelled.