Dedicated to: JerwinMagnaye9
Janelle's POV
"Don't meddle with my life, okay. Baka nakakalimutan mo, ex lang kita." I managed to say those words without him noticing that my voice is trembling.
He was taken aback. I noticed pain in his eyes. Suminghap siya at tumingala. Then he looked at me again, namumula ang mga mata.
"W-What if... I want you back? "
I. f*ckin. want. you. bad.
Takte. Ito din ung sinabi niya dati. Na gusto niyang makipagbalikan kay Isabelle.
"Sa tingin mo ba babalik pa 'ko sa 'yo? Sa tingin mo ba, magpapakatanga ako sa 'yo? Ginawa mo 'kong rebound Vince. Akala ko totoo lahat ng sinabi mo before. Akala ko hindi mo 'ko sasaktan." I wiped my tears. Siya naman hinayaan lang na umagos ang luha niya.
"T-Totoo lahat ng sinabi ko sa 'yo E-El."
"Don't call me that! "
Humakbang siya palapit, umatras ako habang umiiling. This is a mess. Hindi na dapat ako nagpunta pa rito.
Akala ko kaya ko na siyang harapin without showing too much attention pero nagkamali ako. Nagkamali na naman ako.
"Patawarin mo 'ko Janelle. Kung sinaktan kita, kung hindi ko natupad lahat ng pinangako ko sa 'yo. I was stupid that time. I thought that I still love Chelsea--"
"Enough! Hindi ko kailangan ng paliwanag mo. It's too late Vince."
"I-I know but please... kahit ngayon lang. Please. Listen to me." I silently sobbed.
Makikinig ka na naman sa kanya? Hindi ba kabaliwan na 'to?
"When I saw you going out from the office with Felix, agad kitang hinabol. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. T-Tapos nagkasabay pa kayo sa elevator. Then the day that I saw you in the church, I can't concentrate. I'm too distracted with the guys looking at you." He paused for a while and wiped his overflowing tears. Then he continued.
"I can clearly recall when you told me that I am done with you. Itinatatak 'ko 'yon sa isip ko Janelle. Kaya noong graduation, kahit gusto kitang lapitan, hindi ko magawa. I can see your mother's glare at me. Naduduwag ako na harapin ka. Plus the fact na maraming nagpapicture sa 'yo. Some who has secretly crush on you. Wala akong karapatang magalit sa kanila. I wasted your time. And I know it's my fault. I wanted to say sorry. I broke up with Isabelle when I found out that she lied to me. I immediately went to your province but you don't want to talk to me." Wait. What? Hindi ka nagpunta ni isang beses.
"When you were struggling with your review for the board, I really want to talk to you. Pero hindi nangyayari kasi ayaw mo 'kong makausap. "
"W-Who told you I don't want to talk to you?"
He smiled painfully. "Y-Your mom but I-I definitely understand her. Im still lucky na hindi niya 'ko ipinapa-ban sa village niyo." My mom did what?
"I'm sorry Janelle. Sana paniwalaan mo 'ko." I wiped my tears again and smiled at him.
Okay na siguro ang pag-uusap na 'to.
Mukha siyang nabuhayan ng pag-asa.
"I'm sorry din pero hindi ko kaya. Please respect my decision, I don't want to be with you anymore. I made it clear to you... Na ikaw ang kalilimutan ko at hindi ang mga salitang binitawan ko. Maybe, this is what both of us are waiting for, t-to have a proper closure."
"N-No Janelle. I-I need to change your mind. Please, magpapaliwanag pa 'ko."
Pero ayoko na.
"Tama na siguro 'to. Hindi na magkakaroon pa ng tayo Vince. "
"Because of Nicholas?" he asked.
"Because of Aicka, your girlfriend. 'Wag mo sana siyang lolokohin, tama na yung panggagago."
"N-No, you misunderstood it Janelle--"
"What's happening here?" si Nicholas na nakalapit agad sa akin. "Why are you crying Janelle?" umiling lang ako bilang sagot.
"Janelle..." si Vince pa rin.
"What did you do to her? "
"Please pare, labas ka dito."
Nicholas hissed at mabilis na kinwelyuhan si Vince. Namumula ang tenga niya dahil sa inis.
"Nicholas! Please?! Bitawan mo siya. Let's go!" I said and pulled him.
Wala siyang nagawa kung hindi magpatianod. Hinawakan ko siya sa kamay at hinila na palabas ng bahay.
"Ang tagal mo ah," si Kree.
"Uuwi na kami. Happy birthday ulit bes, let's catch up next time."
"Something wrong? " Aicka asked. Tumingin siya sa likod namin.
"W-Wala. Sige, uh.. Bye Kree... Aicka." Kree stood up and hugged me.
"I know something bad happened, I'm sorry, " she whispered. She really knows me.
"Bye."
"Ingat kayo. Nicholas, please pakiingatan ang kaibigan ko. Thanks for coming," si Kree ulit.
"I will. Thanks for the invite."
"Pakisabi na lang kay Tita na umuwi na kami. See you soon, " nag-beso ako kay Kree and ngumiti lang ng pilit kay Aicka.
I also looked at Vince.
~~ Tayo ay pinagtagpo ngunit hindi itinadhana
Sadyang mapaglaro itong mundoooo
Kinalimutan kahit nahihirapan
Para sa sariling kapakanan
Kinalimutan kahit nahihirapan
Mga oras na hindi na mababalikan
Pinagtagpo ngunit hindi itinadhana
Puso natin ay hindi....
sa isa 't isa... ~~
Maybe this is destiny's way to say na hindi tayo itinadhana. Na ang mga puso natin ay hindi talaga para sa isa't isa.
I sighed when I reminisced again about what happened that night. Kung talagang willing siya, bakit hindi na siya nagpakita. It seems like the months that had been passed swallowed his whole existence.
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A/N: Sorry for the very very slow and short update. Gusto kong mag-dedicate so please vote and comment down HAHA. Thanks for reading! 💕
