Did I just get asked out on a date?
There's no way someone like Jared, who I barely know, likes me, someone who he barely knows. He doesn't know about my nervous fidgets, my sappy hour (I do this with a friend and everyday at 11pm we say something sappy and it's fun), he doesn't know I love trees more than anything, he's going to get bored of me.
Should I even go? Well I can't ghost him, I could never do that without being overwhelmed in guilt for days. What if he kills me if I don't go? He couldn't do that, he asked me out. He can't hate me yet.
Mind this, I'm still in a convenience store, having a conversation with myself inside my head. I'm staring at something right in front of me but I couldn't tell you what I'm staring at. I can't focus on anything. I'm stiff. Frozen. Shocked. Confused. Almost every emotion is swelling up inside me.
Everything seems distant. Like the cashier a few feet ahead of me is like they're a mile away. There's black all around me, except for this one blurry circle in front of my eyes. I move my head and everything is moving so much faster than my eyes can even comprehend.
What is happening. I don't see people asking if I'm okay. I don't see the cop cars pulling up in front of the store. I don't see the lady who was shot being carried away. I… I'm lost.
All because of a guy I barely know who asked me out on a definitely not but totally is date. Where would he even take me? Is he taking me to an abandoned cellar where he keeps innocents hostage? He wouldn't do that, right?
Should I buy new clothes? He already saw what I was wearing, what if it seems like I'm trying too hard? (HaRd?) But my clothes are dirty from me laying on the ground. And sweaty for obvious reasons. What if I just wash them? Then I should just change. Why is this so confusing?!
I need to lay down. Right now. My head hurts. It's not like a throbbing and unbearable pain but I feel like it will soon. Wait. No. I feel dizzy. Everything is spinning. Why is it spinning? Make it stop. Ah, now the pain hits. i can't keep my eyes open. It feels like my eyelids are drooping, getting heavier and heavier by the second.
Have I felt this before? Of course I have, I just have a terrible memory. Damnit! Make it stop! Somebody make it stop! I grip onto my head, trying to stabilize myself. It doesn't work. I'm leaning from side to side. Why won't it stop. Make it st-
I'm falling. But it feels so slow. I'm getting flashbacks. Why are these coming back? They stopped. They stopped so long ago. I shouldn't have to relive this again. This isn't fair. It was a mistake! I don't think like that anymore. It's not my fault the tree wasn't tall eno-
I crash.
Hiiiiii. It's me the author
This probably isn't what you expected (or wanted) but the next part of the actual date will be published soon. Don't worry. I want to see how the date goes too :)
The next chapter will be pretty long because when Evan and Jared go on dates it's adorable and I'm sure we all want them to last. Just be patient and it'll be out soon :3
Also, sorry this was short
Since this story will be very long, let me know what other one shots I can do while I continue with the story, I want something new coming out every once and a while
Thank youu
