Arranged Marriage

Chapter 34 |Please|

|Cedrick's P.O.V|

"She had dissociative amnesia when she was five years old. We thought it'll only be for a short period of time but until now, she couldn't remember what happened. If you think meeting the Black Star Org. will be good for Jen, then I'll trust you wholeheartedly"

I sighed as I remember tita Jessica's words. The night after kong magpropose kay Venice ay kinausap ko si tita Jessica para i-consult sa kanya ang desisyon ko na ipakilala si Venice sa Black Star Org. She owns it anyway. But tita Jessica told me the reason why they hid such information from her.

Hindi maalis sa isip ko ang mukha ni Venice when I answered Mrs. Lee's question. We don't really kill people. We're not murderers. Even though we want to kill, we can't. It's against the law. It's just that, sometimes, things does not really go the way how we plan it to be.

Napa-iling nalang ako to keep my thoughts from evading my head. I look out the window as I saw it's almost 6 o'clock in my dashboard. Nandito ako ngayon sa loob ng kotse ko at hinihintay ang pag-dating ni Venice. They were having a meeting about their presentation in A.P. Natapos naman na kasi ang preparation ng grupo ko kanina kaya ay maaga akong naka-alis. I'm grouped with Hush and Monasterio and honestly, the three of us is not really a good combination. We just managed to get through.

As I look out the window, I can't help but to think about Venice's welfare. I know she's unstable right now, there are a lot of things going on in her head and I'm sure she's having a very hard time sorting it all out. It pains me to see her in a mess and I know, I am the one to blame.

I have never imagined I'll come to a point where I'm regretting my feelings for her. I love her so much. The moment I first laid my eyes on her, I knew there was something else and I know it can't be. So I watched her from afar. I tried my best to keep distance but everytime I do, I always find myself near her. She's a lovely person. Her smile alone can made my day. Her laugh sounds like music in my ears. And when dad told me I'll be in an arrange marriage, I disagreed at first but I realized I'll really never be with her so I just accepted it. But then I guess Cupid is on my side on this one. Dad transferred me in this school and I was having this panic attack when I found out it's here in her school. I didn't notice her so I bumped on her and I swear to God I wanted to touch her on that very moment. But I couldn't. I'm not a creepy guy.

I thought I can finally make my move, for her to know me. But then I realized I already agreed with my dad with this arranged marriage. So to brush off my feelings, naging jerk ako sa kanya.

I never thought it'll be Venice. When dad told me I'll be meeting a woman in a restaurant, I boredly said yes. But then when I saw her, I feel like my whole body's about to explode that very moment.

I know she doesn't want this arrange marriage thing and I don't want to force myself on her. I don't want to cage her in this set-up because I know, she loves someone else and it's not me. So I tried convincing her to cancell the arrangement. But she said we'll push through.

Magiging hipokrito ako kung sasabihin kong hindi ko gusto ang arrange marriage na ito, but I don't want us to be with each other just because we're in an arrange marriage. I once had a fantasy where we'll be a normal couple. We'll date on our own, we'll get to know each other because it's a mutual thing for us, but I know it can really never happen.

Both of us is living in the world of Mafia. My father has his own Mafia group and I am the direct inheritor of it. While Venice has the Black Star Org. Venice is not really the inheritor of it, it will be passed on to Vince when he's at the right age. So ang pagtago nila Tita Jessica at Tito Victor kay Venice about the organization is justifiable. But I think I just ruined everything.