Arranged Marriage

Chapter 33 |A Shitty Day|

"She already have"

Parang sirang plaka na paulit-ulit ang mga salita ni Cedrick sa utak ko. Ang mga katagang iyan ang gumambala sa'kin buong mag-hapon kahapon, at iyan ang dahilan kung bakit nag-kulong lang ako sa kwarto buong maghapon kahapon. Ni hindi ako kumain ng lunch at dinner at wala akong ibang taong kinausap. Sobrang gulong-gulo ako sa sinabi ni Cedrick pero hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ako galit sa kanya. And when I saw a shilouette last night, I've felt a sudden crave for me to kill.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sa'kin kagabi dahil kinailangan pa akong yakapin ni Cedrick para lang itigil ko ang pagbug-bog sa lalaking nanghimasok sa bahay namin. I swear I do not know why I acted that way. Basta, ang gusto ko kagabi ay hindi sya maka-tapak papasok ng bahay. And now, natatakot na ako sa sarili ko..

I tried asking Cedrick what he meant by what he said yesterday but he just kept on saying sorry and told me he's not the right person to disclose the information. I begged. I craved for the answers but he wouldn't tell me. I even called mom and all I got is: you'll know and understand everything soon. I promise.

Sunlight...

'Yan ang unang-unang hinanap ng mga mata ko pag gising ko pero isang nakatalikod na impakto ang nakita ko. Binubuksan ni Impaks ang kurtina ng veranda nya pero hindi ko sya pinapanood. Naka-tingin ako sa labas at kita ko pa ang madilim na kalangitan pero unti-unti narin namang lumiliwanag.

"Hey. Wake up. We have our morning assembly today" sabi ni Impaks as he walk towards me. He's already wearing his bathrobe at mukhang katatapos nya lang maligo.

Hindi ko sya pinansin at nanatili lang akong nakatingin sa labas ng veranda na para bang may makikita akong kakaiba. Cedrick sat on the bed and I closed my eyes again when he tried to touch my face. Seconds later, wala akong naramdaman na hawak nya kaya ay nanatili lang akong nakapikit.

I want to tell him to leave me alone but I can't. A part of me wants him near but there is a larger part of me that screams I want to be alone right now. I can't look at him. Not in my state where I can clearly remember how horrified he was when he's trying to calm me down last night.

"Do you want to skip school today?" Tanong ni Impaks and I feel like I want to cry by how gentle his voice is right now.

I bit my lower lip. I'm so tired right now. Hindi ko na naiintindihan ang lahat ng nangyayari. Akala ko ay prepared na ako. But just when I'm about to accept everything, just when I'm about to dive into this mess, something just don't add up and it's ruining my sanity.

"No. I'm fine. I just want to be alone for a while" I bravely said as I opened my eyes and looked at him. He's looking at me in a concerned way but he just nodded. He leaned in and kiss me on my forehead and I closed my eyes again as I feel his lips touched my skin. I felt him stood up so I watched him walk towards the walk-in closet. Siguro ay para magpalit na ng uniform.

I closed my eyes again but everything just flashed in my head. I can still clearly see the people while I am standing there on the stage. I can hear how that woman asked if I've already killed a man. And I can still clearly see and hear how Cedrick answered the question.

"Yes. She already have"

I almost threw a fit yesterday. I almost walked out as I demand an answer from Impaks. But before I could leave that damn stage, a man named Flavior, who kept calling me princess, stopped me and told me I should not leave. Yesterday, I saw how Cedrick commanded those people to leave the hall and I saw how those people followed without even asking any question. I saw the power Cedrick holds. He can command those people and they will not even hesitate to follow! And that was the time I realized that in a Mafia world, if you cannot follow those who are in higher position, you can be killed.