Epiphany in Euphoria LK Fanfic

Chapter 36: Move On

Four days passed in a blur. Lisa had excused herself from her mentoring class until she gets better. She succumbed herself in sorrow and ignoring anyone else. The news about Jungkook incident reached the staff and Big Star production team including the mentors. They were all pitying but they don't know that she should be hated instead because she caused the incident.

She had a new habit those days by staying at the beach in the late evening. Watching the day shift to night time. The sun doesn't set at that side. She can only observe the stars shone as the sky get darker.

"Lisa-ya..."

Someone called. Her members were standing behind her giving a smile that she had no strength to return it. She tightened the blanket that wrapped her body. They sat on her left and right side.

"Your mom said you haven't eaten yet. We bought your favourite food. We have chocolate milk too." Jisoo lifted the plastic bags in her hand.

"Eat or I will finish them all!" Rosé said teasingly. Trying to cheer her up but Lisa gave no reaction.

All three members shook their heads. They can't bear to see her in that state. Lisa was not in her right state of mind. She needed support and as her members, they need to be there for her.

Lisa eyed the plastic bags and then Jisoo.

"Eonni. Jin Oppa doesn't tell you anything?"

Jisoo knew she will ask that question.

"No. They aren't allowed to tell anything to anyone. They even signed a disclosure agreement about that. His whereabouts are a secret We can't do anything. Sorry, Lisa."

Crying has been her routine for days. Her tears flew like a river. Never-ending. She cried every time and the worst when in her sleep. The three hugged their maknae seeing her crying for the nth time.

"It's my fault. He fell because he wanted to answer my phone call. He can't concentrate. Now he's gone..."

Her shoulders slumped. Seeing Lisa in this condition make Jennie mad and sad. Lisa was not that weak. She was losing herself by succumbing in guilt. Life must go on. This is not the end of the world.

"Yah, Pranpriya! You said you want to find him! You said you won't give up! But I feel that you are losing yourself too! Get back to your sense!" Jennie shook her body. Her eyes are getting red. Holding her tears.

"We don't want to lose you. We love you, care for you. You're not only hurting yourself. You hurt ours too. We are your family, your friends. We want your happy self, back... Please snap out of it! Wake up bitch!" She yelled.

Lisa was startled. She never thought that Jennie would lash out on her. Their members, they were hurting too. They felt her pain and sorrow. She never thought of their feeling. She busy weeping upon her unlucky self.

Lisa lowered her head. Jennie felt helpless. Lisa was like a living doll with no soul. She doesn't want her members to worry about her again.

Lisa slowly reached for plastic bags in Jisoo hands. Lisa took out the container and grabbed a pair of chopsticks. One piece of kimbap entered her mouth and she chewed very slowly with no expression. She forced herself to finish the food.

The other three members busted into tears looking at the way she was eating. It was pitiful. Lisa eyed her members weirdly. She was eating yet they were still crying.

"Eonni, Chaeng don't cry. I'm eating right now."

"Do you want to go to work? You are still on your leave, Lisa"

Jennie watched Lisa getting ready in her room.

"I'm fine Eonni. The show will end in less than two months. The trainees need me right now." She sorted all things she needed for her class in her backpack.

"Don't push yourself too hard. It wouldn't do anything good for you." Truthfully, Jennie was worried about Lisa's condition. She acted strong and happy in the outside, but her night sobbing wasn't gone unnoticed by her members.

It has been two weeks since Bangtan announced their hiatus in musical activities as a group and solos. She knew Jungkook is okay because if he dies, it will be all over the news. He could be in the hospital getting treated or already get back into his career in Korea. But why he doesn't come to find her?

"Lisa, he wouldn't like it he you push yourself too hard." Lisa stopped arranging her things. She snapped her head to Jennie.

"So, what I have to do Eonni? Weeping and crying won't make him come back to me. I need a distraction."

Jennie got nothing to say. Lisa was fragile. She doesn't dare to pressure her.

"Aren't you guys gonna leave? You have been here with me for three weeks."

"Sajangnim allowed us to stay here with you. Don't worry about our projects. It's not like we have anything to do there."

"Enjoy yourself Eonni. I'm leaving." She left.

"Mentor Lisa. I don't expect to see you here. "Lisa met Ella in front of the main entrance to the building. Her eyes scanned Lisa up and down.

"Are you fit to teach today?" She was shocked to hear that her wedding was cancelled that day.

"Yes. I'm good. Can't wait to start the day. I miss the trainees so much." She said cheerfully.

"BTW, I'm sorry about what happened. Is he okay?" Ella rubbed her hand to her arms as a sign of comforting. Lisa appreciated the approach.

"I have no idea about his wellbeing. His family keep it secret to everyone. But I think he's okay."

"Ahh, I see. You are very strong to manage to get yourself together, Lisa."

"Yes..."

The classes went on, as usual, the trainees teased her from time to time and made her laugh especially Xiaotang and Shuxin. She was grateful because she can focus on other things rather than weeping in her room. As soon as her last classes ended, she came across Kun at the hallway.

"You are here?" Kun was shocked. He suddenly felt awkward in the presence of Lisa.

Kun was feeling guilty. He knew that he had something to do with what happened to them. He clasped his hands together.

"I'm sorry if anything that happened caused by me which I think, it did cause from me. He saw us, didn't he?"

Lisa just nodded agreeing his claim. She got no comment to him because it's all in the past. Bragging about it won't change anything.

"Are you good now? After I heard about his accident, I wanted to reach for you. But I just think you need space."

"I'm okay. I don't want to think about it much."

"Again, I'm sorry for what happened. I hope you are coping well."

Lisa smiled at the warm advice.

"Thanks, Kun."

Three weeks since she last saw Jungkook. She had a feeling that he already discharged from the hospital and currently in South Korea.

Doesn't he remember her? Why he doesn't come to look for her? Has their love ended? Does he already give up on her?

These thoughts lingered in her mind. If he doesn't love her anymore should she give up on him and move on?

In front of her, the waves crashed the beach. Maybe her thoughts also crashed her heart.

"Am I ready to move on?"