You're Not Enough

Chapter 102

"So, how has school been?"

I nod my head and say, "Good." Giving him the answer every teenager gives adults when they ask them about school.

"Good?"

I turn my head to look at him. "Yes, good," I say a little more assuringly.

"Have you started on your senior project yet?" He asks.

"Uhhh, no," I forgot I have to meet Jessica tomorrow. Crap, that means I won't get to go to the warehouse till later. I keep checking my phone, expecting a call to come through, or a text, something. I'm getting really worried; something doesn't feel right.

"Jayda," my dad snaps.

"Huh?" Was he talking to me?

"I said, have you heard from your mother."

"Oh, Uhm, yes, she called just before we left." he doesn't say anything; he just keeps his eyes focus on the road. "Have you heard from her?" I ask him.

He shakes his head. "No, no, I haven't," he says despairingly. I can see the sadness on his face, his cheeks drop, and his lips relax.

"It's okay; I'm sure she's just busy; she'll probably call you later," I say, trying to ease his sadness. "She misses you," I add, partially lying, she didn't say she missed him, but I know she does.

When he turns and looks at me, I see it; I see his hope-filled eyes holding on to the thought of my mother missing him.

I know something happened between them; I know it; I remember how my mother looked when she came to say goodbye to me before she left; she looked crushed, but why?

Why would she just up and leave like that? I mean, yeah, she said goodbye, but she was in a rush, she left a whole week early; it just doesn't make any sense.

My whole freaking life makes no sense; there's always a secret waiting to be uncovered. I never thought about it until now, but what if the end of the tunnel is the big revelation of my life. The light, is all the questions, all the mysteries of my life being answered.

I've been stuck in the dark, not moving forward, just going in circles really, when all along I should have been moving towards the light. I should have been questioning everything that's happened in my life because everything happens for a reason.

So it's simple

When I find the light, I find the reason for everything.

...

"Thank you," I hand the waiter my menu; my dad gives him his. I take a look around the famous Crossland Country Club. I have never been here before. I don't know why my mom and dad like to come here. There's nothing grand about it.

Actually, I do know why. Anybody who is anybody is a member here. Out front, before we walked in, I saw a silver plaque with all the member's names on it. My parents were on there, Ryder's parents, Jessicas, Monica's, Ashley's parents, well her mom, I didn't see a Mr.Forbes on there. There were some other familiar names on there too.

"So, how do you like it?" My father asks with a big smile.

"It's..." I tilt my head side to side. "Fancy."

He laughs. "Well, I hope so, I pay almost a hundred thousand dollars a year for a membership here."

My mouth drops open. "A hundred thousand dollars?" I repeat, that can't be what he said.

"Mhm," he says, verifying what he just said.

"All the starving people in the world." I scoff. "And people pay a hundred thousand dollars a year to golf, eat and spend thirty minutes in a steam room." I try not to let my words come off as bitter, but they do. It makes absolutely no sense as to why people would spend all that money on a country club membership. I get other people, but my parents, I mean, I know we have the money, but they're all for investments, this doesn't seem like an important place to put their money into. My parents most likely go half and half on the cost, but still, why would they waste their money to hang out with pruney people when they could put their money towards something beneficial.