If It Is You (Y.Jw) [Sequel]

You Were Gone

October 2021

Through the night I had moved nearly all the way over towards the wall as I had hugged my duvet tightly. I liked sleeping like this. Having so much room in the bed behind me as I was just curled up against the wall.

"Bubs... Bubs," Sunghoon shook my shoulder to which I hummed and turned around to look at him.

"What is it?" I muttered and rubbed my eyes.

"Didn't you and Jungwon go to bed together?" he questioned me and I just shook my head.

"I got home late from the studio," I muttered, "can't I sleep in? I got back at two."

"Uh yeah... we might have a slight problem with that," he revealed as I heard a loud bang from outside the bedroom making me lift my head and frown towards the door.

"Please stop! Just calm down!" Heeseung loudly exclaimed from the other side of the door.

"What is happening?" I frowned in confusion.

"Jake said he heard Jungwon have a nightmare and before he could do anything Jungwon was up and running around," Sunghoon replied making me sit up in bed, "we have no idea what is happening... so we've decided to wake you up. Heeseung hyung, Jake and Sunoo are out there trying to get him to stop. Jay and Niki are asleep and I got the duty to wake you up."

"But what is he doing?" I questioned in confusion as I heard another bang followed by a lot smaller ones.

"Last time I checked he was pretty much trashing the whole dorm," Sunghoon nodded at me, "can you help... please?"

"I don't even know if I can do anything," I shook my head as I threw my duvet to the side.

"Can you try?" Sunghoon questioned and I just nodded at him before walking with him out in the living room where Sunoo stood and stared down the hallway with wide eyes, "woah... what happened?" Sunghoon questioned and I looked at the various pillows and books that had been thrown around.

"Uh... so we found out sorta what is happenning," Sunoo excused, "Jake and Heeseung hyung are trying to get him to stop, I'm just keeping a watch out."

"Yeah... so what is happening?" Sunghoon questioned as I could hear another bang from the kitchen, making me frown as Jake let out a small squeal from the direction.

"Uh so far, he's been running around and screamed that she is gone," Sunoo explained, "obviously we think she is Sunny," Sunoo excused making me frown, "and another update is that he's now crying profusely last time I saw him."

"For the love of God Jungwon! Stop it!" Heeseung yelled as he ran out from the kitchen and looked down at us, "please just help."

"Hyung!" Jake screamed before running past Heeseung, "Jiyeon-ie!" he yelled out in glee and stopped halfway down the hallway as I just rubbed my eyes.

"I'll take it," I assured and pushed past Sunoo and Sunghoon as Heeseung and Jake rushed down past us and I heard another crash from the kitchen, "all the cleaning tomorrow," I muttered and dragged my hands over my face as Jungwon appeared in the door to the kitchen, looking around frantically and began running down the hallway towards me, "Jungwon-ah?" I softly called out making him immediately stop before his eyes landed on me.

"Ji," he breathed out before rushing over and wrapping his arms tightly around me, pulling me down on the floor as he just held onto my waist and dug his head into my shirt.

"I say she got it from here," Heeseung spoke up and I just hummed and placed a hand in Jungwon's hair as the boys disappeared back into the bedroom once more, throwing one last glance towards Jungwon's dishevelled body that laid sprawled out on the floor up against me as I moved over and leaned my back against a wall.

"Wonie," I called out as he just silently cried into my shirt. I could feel it get wet on my stomach as he just shook in my embrace, "what is happening? Why did you suddenly act out like that?"

"I... I..." he stuttered out and I just hummed for him to go on, but he just stayed silent as he shook his head.

"Come on tell me," I urged.

"I... I thought I lost you. I thought you were gone, missing," he whimpered making me let out a small sigh as I ran my hand through his hair and let my eyes close.

"I'm here... right here," I muttered to him and mindlessly dragged my hand through his hair, "I'm not going anywhere."

"I know... I was just... so scared," he muttered and moved one of his hands to dry his eyes before returning it around my waist, "I... I must've had a nightmare about you being gone and once I woke up I thought it was real."

"And you didn't think of checking my bunk first?" I questioned him.

"I did, but I couldn't feel you," he excused making me sigh and realize I must've been too close to the wall for him to reach me.

"I'm so sorry," I muttered and he just shook his head at me, "what did you think had happened to me?"

"I dreamt... that... that... I wasn't home, here... in the dorm," he started before sucking in a deep breath, "and I think... you were home alone... and your... sasaeng had gotten into the house."

"Ah," I nodded before leaning my head back against the wall and let my eyes fall close once again.

"And he... hurt... you..." he hesitantly explained before I could hear his voice crack and he just burried his face back in my shirt.

I opened my eyes once more and looked down at him. He was absolutely hysterical, sobbing and crying into my shirt as he just grabbed fistfuls of my shirt on my back. I softly hummed a lullaby my mom used to sing, as I ran my hands through his hair. Letting him cry it out was gonna be the best for him.

"How do you say I sleep in your bed tonight?" I spoke up as his sobs had calmed down and he just nodded at me, "was there more to the dream you didn't tell me?"

"After he..." he trailed off and took in a deep breath.

"It's alright," I assured him in a soft tone, "take your time."

"After he had hurt you," he started and let out a shaky breath as I nodded at him, "he took you with him... I didn't dream it... but... I had a feeling that... that he either seriously hurt you... or you were dead."

"I'm not," I assured him and surpressed a yawn, "I'm here, sitting in your embrace... almost falling asleep," I admitted with a small laugh, "I'm not leaving."

"Are you tired?" he muttered and I just let out a small hum.

"But I don't think you should stand up yet," I spoke, "so we'll stay here for a while."

I don't know how long that while was. I had soon after felt my eyelids go heavy and just let me drift off into sleep once again. I do know that in the morning we had woken up in each other's embace, still on the floor in the trashed hallway.