If It Is You (Y.Jw) [Sequel]

Kcon 2022

August 19, 2022

I quietly fiddled with the small sun charm hanging on my bag, everything had been just fine a few days ago and now I suddenly was without a roommate for when we got to LA. Even though I had very clearly told management that I needed to have a rommate if we were going to the states. 

"It'll be fine," Jake softly assured me as the car came to a half outside the airport, "Jay says it isn't scary."

"It's just... when you live in Europe, and you get older the whole image of the American dream is sorta shattered and you just realize how dangerous it is from what you're used to," I murmured and he nodded quietly.

"Your English is much better than your Korean, if you can survive here then you can survive there," Jake assured and squeezed my shoulder as he got out of the car and I let out a small sigh before following after him.

I wasn't scared about my language capabilities, I was scared for our actual safety. I knew my fear was stupid and just influenced from what I heard in medias and statisticas, but after the abortion ban had been voted for I had mentally decided it wasn't a place I wanted to go, but I never thought I actually would be anxious about going, and I felt bad for feeling like that.

I quickly pulled up my mask and stepped out to stand by Riki as we waved at the cameras that all were flashing in our faces. Now the hard part came, getting through the airport. I could already see the big crowd and I don't recall us having a nice experience in the Korean airport even once.

As we got ready to head inside I quickly placed myself between Jay and Heeseung, grabbing onto Jay's bag in front of me and being assured that Heeseung was staying right behind me as I wandered through the airport with my head lowered.

To me it felt like an eternity before we got through security into a space where we could breathe properly. Most of the boys had headed forward along with our manager, meawhile I had stayed a bit behind.

"Are you still feeling bad about going?" Jay questioned as he slowed down to walk beside me.

"It's not that I feel bad," I sighed at him and he quietly nodded, "you know I'm excited to meet your family... I just..."

"Internal conflict," he finished and I nodded at him, "it's fine. Don't worry. As long as you're excited to meet my family."

"I really am," I assured him, "and I'm sorry that I am not excited to be going to your home."

"I can't exactly force you to like it," he reminded me with a small shrug, "as long as you don't hate me I'm glad."

"Are you kidding me?" I gasped at him and he let out a small laugh, "of course I don't hate you."

"And then I promise you I won't be encouraging any idea of the states buying your land mass," he cooed in return and I glanced at him.

"I seriously don't know what the heck they were thinking when they offered to buy Greenland," I commented in shock, "like... it's not a colony. We're not in the colonization period or anything. We don't sell land mass."

"Let's just enjoy our time together as a group, and keep Sunoo updated," he reminded and wrapped an arm around my shoulder as I nodded in agreement, "I'm sure he would love it if you facetime him and show your room to him."

"Oh he sure would love it," I nodded in agreement as we caught up with the others at our gate to put down our things.

August 20, 2022

I quietly fiddled with my hands as we stood on the field for the Dodgers game, at which Jay and Jake would be pitching at. We had been called over for an interview and Riki had excitedly pulled me over to stand between him and Jungwon.