If It Is You (Y.Jw) [Sequel]

Chapter 19

"We have to go in five, Ji," Jungwon reminded me as he poked his head into the kitchen.

"Just a moment," I nodded at him as I quickly sipped my juice down and wrote the last sentence of lyrics in my notebook, for when I would go to the studio and compose after school.

I quickly placed my cup in the sink and closed my notebook to return it into my nightstand in the bedroom.

"Quick Noona, we have to go now," Niki called out to me.

"I'm coming," I called out and quickly shut the drawer.

I immediately reached up in my bed and pulled down my bag as Jake entered the bedroom and turned to me.

"I know, I know. I'm coming," I assured him before turning around to him.

"Sit down Jiyeon," he told me and I frowned at him, "you're not realizing it yourself are you?"

"What?" I questioned him in confusion as Jay poked his head into the room to see what was happening as well.

"Oh... this is bad," Jay added on.

"Will you stop? This is not funny," I complained to them and rushed past them and out into the kitchen as Jungwon quickly followed after me.

"Where are you going? We have to go now," Jungwon reminded me as I opened the fridge and pulled out my bottle, "Ji, now."

As everyone began yelling out for me to hurry up or settle down, it seemed like the world was zooming out and I completely froze. I quickly closed the fridge and grabbed onto the table right behind me, as I closed my eyes tightly and tried to steady my breath. I didn't have time for this right now. As if I didn't feel sick enough about going to school today, the boys just had to rush me. I knew they didn't intend to this happening, I just couldn't control it anymore.

I'm pretty sure I faintly heard a concerned voice questioning if I were alright, before it seemed that I couldn't hold it in anymore. In a rush I stumbled down the hallway and into the bathroom where I locked the door and quickly collapsed to the floor, heaving after my breath as my eyes welled up. Why now?

I frantically looked around the bathroom. Neither my bag nor bottle was anywhere in sight, I must've dropped both on my way to the bathroom. My eyes kept shaking, as well did my hands, no matter how much I tried to calm them down.

"Ji! Open the door please! What's happening?" Jungwon yelled from the other side of the door as he slammed on it, and I immediately snapped my head to it and felt my eyes well up even more.

The thing I had feared doing, had happened, I made him worried. I didn't want him to worry, why couldn't I just control it. I didn't want to be like this, I didn't like to be like this. Why can't I just be normal?

"Jiyeon! Open the door," Heeseung called out softly from the other side, suddenly having appeared out of the blue.

"Leave me alone!" I yelled out to him, still trying to contain myself.

"Please open, I've sent the others to school," he begged and I shook my head in denial, despite him not being able to see me.

"I know you haven't," I muttered to him, and it seemed that he heard, the door must be really thin.

"Just... please open the door. I'm scared you'll hurt yourself," he pleaded to me as my tears just began falling down my cheeks.

"I'm sitting in the middle of the floor, I won't hurt myself," I replied to him as my hands began shaking even more than before.

"You're not gonna open that door, before you decide to, are you?" he questioned and I hummed a 'no' in reply, before I seemed to lose everything.

I felt that I couldn't breathe, as I just lost all control over my limbs and mind. It seemed that I just... disappeared from the surface of the earth, for an unknown amount of time, before dropping down and laying on the floor, as I just breathed heavily. I was scared, I was so incredibly scared, and I didn't like this in any way.