Once Upon He Was Mine (Good Girls Series #4)

Chapter 47: Memory

"Ms. Cortez, what are you doing?!" I stopped practicing the tooth restoration when my professor shouted. She immediately went towards my direction. "How can't you simply do beveling? Napakasimpleng bagay, hindi mo magawa?!" I heard my classmates laughters. I just looked downwards and heaved a sigh.

It has been an hour since our tooth restoration practice started. And it has been an hour since our professor started scolding me for my mistakes.

"I am so sorry, Miss. Masakit po kasi ang ulo ko---"

"Bakit? Ulo ba ang ginagamit mo para mag-pasta ng ngipin?!" she asked, glaring at me. I just bit my lip.

"I am sorry,"

"Sorry? Sorry na naman? Ayusin mo!" She then go back to her table and sat on it. I took a deep breath and looked around, I saw them doing their works better than mine.

I heaved a sigh and tried again. I finished beveling and proceeded to the excavation or removing carious debris or the soft and those infected areas of the damaged tooth.

I felt my hands shaking while etching it. Etchant is the sour thing that we apply to the tooth to open the dentinal tubules and is to get rid of the streak layer of the teeth. Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang isinasagawa ko 'yon, I felt my professor glaring at me. and I can't focus.

Napapikit na lang ako nang maramdaman ang sakit ng ulo. I am sure that I got a seven-hour sleep last night, I followed my diet and had my breakfast eaten. But why am I feeling pain again?

I continued and took the bonding agent or the bonderizer which serves as glue that seals the interface. I closed my eyes quickly at kinuha ang susunod na equipment.

Hanggang sa aksidente kong maipatak ang dental curing light at ang scaler dahil sa nanginginig na kamay. It created a noise that hurts our ears.

"What the---Ms. Cortez, you know that scaler is sterile. You shouldn't drop it on the floor!" Here comes my professor again. "Magde-dentista ka ba talaga?" She quickly picked the scaler and the curing light, she threw the scaler in the disinfection liquid. "Quick advice, if you can't handle this very simple thing, you should drop off and shift course. Dentistry isn't a playground, everything here is serious. Kung restoration na nga lang hindi mo pa magawa nang tama, paano na kaya ang mga surgery. Kid, stop fooling this kind of field." She rolled her eyes and looked at my classmates. "Kayo, kung hindi niyo 'to kaya, lumayas na rin kayo sa dentistry. Hindi ito biro at pwedeng gawing biro lamang." Our professor took her things and immediately walked towards the door. "'Tsaka na tayo mag-restore 'pag umayos na kayong lahat." She walked out of our room, I couldn't look at anyone. All I can feel is pain and humiliation.

"Shanel, you did well," Chesska said and tapped my back. I looked at her. She just pulled down her surgical mask and smiled at me. "I understand you truly, lahat naman tayo sasabak sa gan'yang stage." Pilit akong ngumiti sa kanya. I took off my disposable medical gown, my mask, hair cap, and rubber gloves. I cleaned my table while thinking of Chesska's encouragement.

Bakit ba kasi ganito?

I accept constructive criticisms naman, eh. But why do they have to laugh at me? Why do they have to make fun of my mistakes? Why does she have to talk to me like that? Why does she have to make my wrongs obvious that it makes me lose my confidence?

Sa sobrang sama ng loob ko ay hindi na ako um-attend ng sumunod na subjects kahit na may lima pa. I lost my confidence and had gone through self-blaming and overthinking.

Nakasalubong ko pa si Lexy na masama ang tingin sa akin. She blocked my way and pushed me. I glared at her because I almost fell on the ground.

"You are... a freak!"