Before He Lied

Hardin Chapter 6

I wake up to the sound of her fucking alarm, I reach over and shut it off. It takes me a second to realize that I'm in Tessa's bed, I look to my side and see her silently sleeping. We are still in the same position from last night, her tiny hand is still holding mine. My arm is still wrapped around her and my inked damaged skin is so different from her prefect soft skin. The memories of last nigh play over and a slight smile appears on my face, I did drink but I wasn't as drunk as I pretended I was. The kiss, I cant even explain it. I usually don't let girls kiss me or touch me, when I would fuck them I would just pin their arms until we finished. But it's different with Tessa, when her lips touched mine I felt something, I want to kiss her again. When she touched my back I got goosebumps, I don't let people touch me because it brings back memories that I've spent my whole life trying to repress. There is something about her that I cant seem to shake. Suddenly she stirs awake and I quickly pull my arm away, she yawns before she slowly sits up. She looks at me and smiles. She has such a beautiful.

"Hi." She says in a sweet voice.

"Hi."

"So.....last night was....are we gonna talk about it?"

Her cheeks flush a light shade of pink and she pulls her bottom lip between her teeth.

"Talk? There's nothing to talk about."He says rudely.

"What? But we.....we."

"We kissed, it was just a kiss....it didn't mean anything."

"But you said that you....." She says with a voice full of hurt.

"Look I was drunk ok, it was nothing. I don't even remember most of it."

This was a lie, I remember every moment of that unforgettable kiss. I wasn't that drunk, I wanted to kiss her and I still do but for some reason I'm at a constant internal battle with myself and I can never say what I'm feeling.

"You don't remember? Hardin we....how could you...we slept in the same bed."

She stands up.

"I was drunk and horny, I don't know what you expect me to say. I don't even remember the kiss, we didn't even have sex so I don't know why you're freaking out over this."

The look that washes over her face says more than words ever could, why couldn't I just say what I was feeling.

"Fuck you, I cant believe I let you kiss me."

She storms into the bathroom while I sit in my self-hatred, now she thinks I used her. Well I am using her, this is all a part of the bet. Sleep with her and win the money, I need to fucking focus. I'm so confused, I have all these feelings at once and I don't know what the do. I didn't wanna hurt her, I didn't wanna make her feel like what I said wasn't real but I'm too much of a coward to tell her how I feel. She comes out of the bathroom with red eyes, she's crying. She grabs clothes and her phone before she goes back into the bathroom. Fuck me, I get up from her bed and go to my side of the room. I just now realize that my room is..........clean. All my shirts are folded and put away and my bed is made, I look over at my book shelf and see that all my books are in alphabetical order. She touched my shit, I specifically told her not to touch my shit. She comes out of the bathroom wearing black ripped jeans with a white shirt and a knitted sweater, her hair is down. She puts on socks and slips on her white trainers, she grabs her purse and starts rummaging inside for something.

"Did you clean my room?"

"Yes."
She won't even look at me, where is she going?

"Why? I told you not to touch my shit."

She takes a deep breath before she looks at me.

"I cleaned because I'm a good person unlike you, I'm trying to be nice and I'm trying my best to tolerate you but you're making it impossible! I cheated on my boyfriend for you and you said it was all for nothing! I can't handle this back and forth with you! You're either kissing me and buying me food or yelling at me and calling me crazy! So yes I cleaned your room but if it upsets you so much than here!"

She walks over to my dresser and opens the top  drawer, she starts pulling out my shirts and throws them on the floor. She knocks all the books off my shelf and grabs my pillow and throws it across the room.

"There, now everything is just the way you left it."

She starts walking towards the door.

"Tessa wait, I didn't mean...."

"NO! Stop doing that! Just leave me alone."

She slams the door and the rest of the books on my shelves fall, great! This is a fucking disaster, this was supposed to be easy. All I have to do is fuck her but my stupid feelings keep getting in the way and I end up saying the wrong things. Where is she even going? It's Saturday so we don't have class. I get a message from Zach saying that him and Sam are going for lunch, I'm not a go out to eat with friends kind of guy but I need to clear my head. I get dressed and grab my keys, on the drive to the bar I can't help but think about her. Once I get there I walk inside and see Sam and Zach sitting at a booth, I sit down and Sam's hand immediately go to my hair.  I push her away.

"What gives?"

"Just leave me alone Sam, I'm not in the mood."

"Whatever, so?" She questions.

"So what?"

"Did anything happen with the virgin marry last night?"

I don't wanna tell Sam, I'm jealous for some reason and I don't wanna tell her. I should respect Tessas privacy and not tell them.

"No."
I try to act believable but as our kiss plays over in my head I can't help the stupid smirk on my face.

"You're lying, something happened and I wanna know." Sam demands.

"Just drop it Sam."

"Fine, I guess that means that Chase is one step closer to winning. He was gonna ask her for some help studying, why do you think he isn't here? He's at the public library with Tessa, remember what happened last time he was in a library with a girl? Looks like you're gonna be coughing up money." She says with a smirk.

This makes me so angry, that's why she left this morning. To go hang out with Chase, if he so much as lays a finger on her I swear to god I will............it's just a bet. I have to win, and this is when my pride and ego get in the way.

"Something did happen, I kissed her. Chase isn't gonna win, if she's willing to cheat on her boyfriend for me she'll surly sleep with me."

"A kiss, she forgot about her boyfriend real fast. She's such a whore." Sam brings her cup to his lips.

"No she's not!"

I stand up and leave the bar, I need to go to that library. I'm not letting Chase win, I won't let him touch her.