Before He Lied

Tessa Chapter 11

I cant believe I was so stupid to think that he was capable of having something real, why am I always being used? I just wanna be happy, I just want someone to look at me and see forever. I'm so tired of always being the second choice, I'm so tired of never being enough for anyone. Just once I wanted to be someone's first choice, I want to be loved. I guess I was stupid to think that he could love me. I walk downstairs and go to the campus secretary.

"Name?" The lady says with ignorance.

"Tessa Young."

"What year are you?"

"First, I'm a freshman."

"And what seems to be the problem Tessa?"

"I need a room change, my roommate is awful and I cant live with him."

"Him? Oh you're the room with a male and female, usually that's against the rules but I'm sorry. Since your application to the school was late we didn't have enough time get a female dorm ready for you, I'm afraid you'll have to stay in the dorm or move off campus."

Great!

"Please, there must be something you can do."

"I'm sorry but there's nothing, the best I can do is sign you up so that next year you have a female roommate. I really wish there was more I can do."

"Its fine, ill just have to deal with it."

This is just amazing, there is no way that I can afford an apartment in New York. Why! Why did I have to get involved with Hardin, I should have just stayed focused on school. I refuse to let him ruin my education, I walk back to the room and open the door. I see him laying on his bed, when he hears the door open he looks up at me.

"You're back."

Just ignore him, I can do this. I put my clothes away and grab some sweatpants and a shirt to change into.

"So you're just gonna ignore me?" He says with attitude.

I open the bathroom door.

"Fine, I don't care about you anyway."

I quickly turn around and walk towards him.

"Just shut up! I will not let you ruin my life! I worked too hard to come this far to let some fuck boy ruin everything I worked hard to earn! Unlike you and your "friends" I didn't have a rich family who could buy my way into school! My family is poor and I had to work countless shifts and join practically every school group so that I would have enough money and credits to get into this school! I need to focus on my career, I don't have time for your drama and bullshit! I don't have anywhere else to live so I have to stay in this dorm so the least that you could do is stay out of my way! Don't talk to me, don't look at me, don't even think about me! Until you're ready to have something real stay the fuck away from me!"

He just looks at me in shock, I walk into the bathroom and slam the door. I was able to hold my tears in front of him but in here I let them out. So much of my blood, sweat and tears went into getting me here. I have to focus, I cant let him ruin this. I turn the shower on and just sit under the water, I need to relax. Once I'm finished in the bathroom I switch into my clothes and go back into the room, I see him laying on his bed. I quickly set my alarm and crawl under my covers, I try to sleep but I cant. He goes into the bathroom and I hear the shower turn on, my mind eventually turns off and I'm able to sleep.

..... NEXT DAY.....

I woke up with an awful headache, luckily for me I only have one class today. That's probably the only good thing about college, being able to customize my schedule is amazing. AP Psychology was pretty boring, all I did was take notes. The bell finally rings and I start packing up my books. Luckily Kim wasn't here so I was able to save myself the embarrassment of talking about Hardin. I begin to leave the class when someone taps my shoulder, I quickly turn around.