If I had know that my days in heaven were numbered I would have appreciated it more.
I would have kissed her longer.
Admired her more.
Make love to her longer.
Love her more.
...
When Sam walked in I knew that it was the end.
When Sam started telling Tessa everything that I did I could breathe, I couldn't do anything.
...
"Tessa please, just let me explain."
I see the broken girl cry over the broken boy who only wanted to love.
"NO! I don't wanna talk to you ever again, I can't even look at you right now."
She starts to cry harder and gasps for air.
"I didn't mean to, I didn't want to do this to you................I only did the bet because I refuse to let Chase win......I know I shouldn't have, I should have told you. I should have told you before we slept together, I shouldn't have told them but I let my ego get in the way...........don't leave me....please."
I can't stop myself from crying.
"I will never be able to look at you the same way.........I trusted you Hardin................I gave you everything...........EVERYTHING!"
She stops to take a breath, she wraps her arms around herself..........she must be freezing.
The snow gets caught in her hair and her nose turns bright red.
"You told them what Nick did, I trusted you with my trauma! I TRUSTED YOU HARDIN! We had sex in the bed I was raped it! I took you to my grandfathers grave! To my grandma.............you met my parents!"
She starts to cry harder.
"WE HAVE AN APARTMENT TOGETHER! I got on birth control for you! And all the sex! WE HAD SO MUCH SEX AND I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME! You were just using me the entire time......and for what? MONEY! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME HARDIN!"
There's nothing I can say to here.
"TESSA ALL OF IT WAS REAL! ALL OF IT! I swear to god I love you, I love you more than I love myself! You have to believe me, I regret everything I did. If I could take it all back I would...............but I can't. Just please believe me when I tell you that everything was real! It was!"
I try to walk towards her but she backs away.
"No it wasn't! You're just a fucking liar!"
"Tess.."
"NO! while I was reliving every moment of the best night of my life you were telling your fucked up friends about my first time...........you were making fun of me! You were USING ME! THE WHOLE TIME I WAS A GAME TO YOU!"
"That was the best night of my life too!" I scream.
"NO IT WASNT! If it was you wouldn't have told them..............you told them I was disgusting.....that I BEGGED! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!"
"Tessa I know...........I'm sorry..........but we can get through this......we can make it..........we can get past this."
She laughs and shakes her head.
"PAST THIS! Hardin we will NEVER GET PAST THIS! I will never let you touch me again, you will never kiss me again, you will NEVER gain my trust after this. WE ARE DONE!"
"No..........please baby................you can't leave me............I can't lose you................I won't survive without you...............let me make it up to you.....please Tess.........I love you.......I'll do anything."
I drop on my knees in front of her.
"You've already lost me...............good bye Hardin."
"No...........no please Tessa please!"
"It was all a lie! You were just trying to get in my pants...............was any of it real for you?"
I stand up and step closer to her, she doesn't move away this time.
"Tessa every single moment was real, I've never trusted anyone before...............but I trusted you."
"Yeah well I trusted you and you betrayed me, I don't believe what you're saying. It was all lies...........let me guess that story about how you were abused when you were little was fake too, just another tactic to make me feel bad for you so I would let you FUCK ME!"
Her words cut through me like a knife.
"No! Why would I lie about that...............Tessa I'm telling you the truth!"
"I DONT BELIEVE YOU HARDIN!"
She takes another breath while the tears continue to pool down her face.
"Why...................why me..........why continue having sex with me if you hated it so much..........why buy an apartment and work at the same office.........why talk about fucking MARRIAGE WHEN YOU KNEW ALL ALONG THAT THIS WAS ALL FAKE! That every moment that I thought we shared wasn't real...........every kiss........every touch..........all the sleepless nights when you held me while we made love............all the I love yous....................it was all fake...........a part of your sick fucked up GAME!"
Her face is all red while she sobs in front of me, while she falls apart. I wanna take her in my arms but she won't let me come near her.
"None of it was fake, you have to believe that I love you baby because I do!"
"NO YOU DONT! And I can't believe it took me this long to realize.................no wonder you wanted to leave for Paris and not look back.....why you wanted to run away.........you knew that you would lose me if I found out the truth.................turns out I've been in bed with a monster this whole entire time! That I've been falling in love with an unfaithful man........no a boy.......................let me guess you were fucking Sam the whole time too! You would leave for "meetings" when really you would go sleep with her!"
"TESSA NO! I WOULD NEVER CHEAT ON YOU! Tessa I know I lied and kept secrets but believe me when I tell you that I was faithful to you the entire time! And of course I enjoyed making love to you! Every single moment of every time that we made love I was 100% into it..........Theresa I'm in love with you.........I told Chase and Sam those lies because I couldn't admit my feels too them............I know what I did wasn't right but..."
"WASNT RIGHT! ITS UNFORGETTABLE HARDIN! I NEVER WANNA SEE YOU EVER AGAIN! I hope you die and go to hell!" She screams full of rage.
She turns to walk away but I grab her arm.
"Please Tessa.................don't leave me........just let me take you home, it's late and cold and you're drunk.........we can talk at home......we can sort this out......I'm begging you."
She yanks her arm away.
"Don't you ever fucking touch me again! That place is NOT my home.........you're not my home............ you never were my home and you never will be...........we will NEVER sort this out! You've lost me forever."
She walks down the street and disappears into the city night.
I watch as the only good thing in my life disappears, vanishes into the night.
What have I done.
(End)
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"After The Truth" is in the making........
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Before He Lied
FanfictionThe coming of age Tessa Young finds herself in a difficult position when she has to chose between what feels right and what is best. The bad boy player Hardin Scott must chose to deny his feelings or allow himself to be happy. Will love be enough to...
