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OS17: If I Had To Let You Go

If I Had To Let You Go

I was just merely looking at our pictures. Hanggang titig nalang ako at pag-aalala sa mga memoryang binuo nating dalawa. Bahagya pa akong napangiti nang magsimula namang nagsituluan ang aking mga luha.

I was sad. I was sad because we had to end up like this. That we ended up like this. Pero ano pa nga ba ang magagawa ko? It was as if we weren't really meant to be.

Sabi nila, hindi naman kasi totoo iyong "kung kayo, kayo talaga". Because if you both really wanted to end up together. You'll do your best to stick with each other. Hanggang dulo. Up until you've reach your goals. Nasa sa inyo nalang ang desisyon.

I want us to work. Ginusto kong tayo hanggang dulo, but why did we end up like this? Ba't tayo nagtapos? Is it just because I was the only one who wanted "us" so bad? Am I the only who wanted the both of us to end up together?

'Ako lang ba?', iyan ang tanong na paulit-ulit kong tinatanong sa sarili. Kung ako lang ba talaga ang may gusto, o sadyang ayaw lang talaga ng tadhana sa ating dalawa.

Napahinga naman ako ng malalim nang pagkakuha ko sa phone ko ay bumungad ang picture ang nating dalawa. I haven't changed my lockscreen. It looks so cute so I just couldn't let it go.

I just can't let you go. Not yet. I am still longing for you. I still want you back, but no. I know it was already our end. Wala na tayo, at alam kong hanggang dun nalang iyon.

But if I really had to let you go, I just really want you to know. I enjoyed the times that I shared with you. That I'll cherish those memories that I made with you. That you're still here in my heart, but sadly, you weren't part of my life anymore. Hindi na, at hindi na muling magiging parte pa.