One Shots 102

OS22: No One

No One

I just blankly stared at the night sky. I was savoring the view, feeling the cold breeze of the air against my bare skin. It was such a great night to waste. It feels so relaxing but my mind and heart is already in chaos.

Have you ever feel being left alone? Being left out in this fvcking dark and cruel world? Being so helpless and hopeless? Being chained into something that you didn't even know why you can't just let yourself free from it?

I smiled sadly as my memories starts to kick in. Those memories that keep on bugging me all day and night. Memories that have been killing me inside. I balled my fist as I felt like I'm about to cry already.

Why am I such a weak person? Why is this fvcking happening to me? I just wanted to be happy. I just wanted to be free. I just wanted someone to lean on. But why can't someone give me even just one of those!

I cried my heart out as it starts to feel so heavy inside. I am suffocating inside. I am pained and hurt in the inside yet no one notices that. Why does no one can see that something's wrong with me? Am I not worth looking for?

I glanced in my wrist that was full of cuts. It was a proof that I've been feeling numb already. I already cut it like for a hundred times already but still no one notices them. Am I that good in pretending? Am I that hideous?

I started to cry hard once again until I couldn't cry no more. I feel so dehydrated as hell already but I couldn't care less. I just want to end this. I just want to free myself from this freaking life I am!

I stared at the moon, it looks so beautiful, but it looks so lonely. It was as if it was longing for something. Just like me, Ive been enduring everything. All alone, because no one can just lend me some hand. Lend me some of their time to hear me out.

I was freaking bullied because of my mom, who's a stripper. I was freaking molested for years by my step father. And I was freaking abused by my very own brother. I endured that. I endured everything, but I feel so tired already. I just can't breathe. I was drowning in my own darkness and it was if I couldn't escape anymore.

I just stand up and slowly walks in closer in the railing. I am currently in a rooftop of a 10-storey building. I've been planning this out. I've been thinking about this all night.

I took my shoes off as I slowly gets closer in the railings. I took a step once more until just one move, I'll be falling off the building already. I closed my eyes as my tears start to pour out once again. I once make myself feel the cold breeze of the air.

"Please let me free.", I whispered in the air as I let go. I feel the cold rush of the air once again. A defeaning silence echoed in my ears. And I smiled, as I knew in myself, I did succumbed in my darkness. Pulling myself in the dark pit of abyss. Where it has been my home for years already.