MY BLOOD boiled and erupting again. This woman is going to kill me. I've been waiting for this confrontation but to my dismay, iba ang narinig ko mula sa bibig niya.
"A-Anong sinabi mo?" I gritted my teeth.
"I decided to get back my responsibility," she seriously looked at me.
"Wait... Let me think for a moment," napatayong sagot ko. I tried to gather my thoughts to understand what she said. "Alam na ba 'to ng parents mo?"
"Yes. I talked about this with them."
"Then what did they say?"
"They told me to ask you. They'll go with your decision whether to allow me or not."
Napaupo ulit ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko. Tsk! Hindi 'to sumagi sa isip ko! So, what's the right response to her request?
"Why... Why do want to get it back? Do you mean that you'll give up your modeling career? Then what's the use of marrying me at the first place?"
She stared back at me. She was silent for a moment. Mukhang nagdadalawang-isip siyang sabihin sa akin ang rason niya.
"Y-You told me that I'm adding up to your burden. Kaya... gusto ko lang mabawasan ang bigat ng dinadala mo."
I gulped as a response. Hindi ako nakapagsalita. I just continued making eye contact with her. We were like doing a staring contest and no one wanted to lose.
"Give me some time to think about it," sabi ko sa kanya.
"Okay," she nodded. "Tawagan mo nalang ako kung nakapagdesisyon ka na. I'll go—"
"Wait!" I immediately stopped her.
"Oh?" she confusedly asked.
When are you going home?
I want to asked her that. But ayaw nitong lumabas sa bibig ko. Am I shy? Bakit naman ako mahihiya? The heck!
"Nothing..."
"Ah," she blinked. Tuloyan na siyang tumayo at kinuha ang bag niyang nakapatong sa lamesa.
"Ahm..." I voiced out again. Gusto kong magtanong. I wanna make a conversation para hindi pa siya umalis. Pero parang tangang hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos.
Where are you staying? Go back to your house kung ayaw mo pang umuwi sa bahay natin. Don't stay at that man's house.
"May sasabihin ka pa?" tanong niya.
"W-Wala. Just... ah, take care. Wherever you go."
"Hmn," tango niya at tuloyan na ngang lumabas sa opisina ko. Hindi man lang ako nilingon ulit.
"Damn it! Wherever you go?! The heck, Casper!" I frustratedly scolded myself. "Mahirap bang sabihin sa kanya na umuwi na? Na hindi ka na galit, na pwede na kayong mag-usap ulit?! Duwag ka talaga! Duwag mo sobra! Argh!"
I DISCUSSED Cassy's proposal to my parents to get their opinion. Ang sabi nila ay ibigay ko daw kung iyon talaga ang gusto ng asawa ko. Pero hindi nila alam na hindi naman talaga iyon ang kagustohan niya. She wanted it because of me. Gagawin niya iyon para siguro makabawi sa akin. Kaya nagdadalawang-isip akong payagan siya.
But my parents-in-law visited me at my office. They told me that they already know my true situation with Cassy and they understand us. They also approved with the decision to let their daughter handle their company. Para daw matuto siya paano magpalakad ng kompanya at makatulong siya sa akin.
Hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko kung bakit labag sa loob ko ang payagan siya, when in fact, iyon ang dahilan kung bakit nagalit ako sa kanya at iyon ang ayaw kong mangyari noon. Pero wala na rin akong nagawa nang mga magulang na namin ang nagproseso para italaga siyang CEO ng kompanya nila na subsidiary na ng kompanya namin.
At her first board meeting, she dressed formally and it was my first time seeing her wearing like that. Her style both awes and perplexes me. I even observed the way those bachelors executives admiringly looked at her. Wala din naman akong nagawa kundi tingnan lang siya. We didn't stand or sit side-by-side, we were always far from each other. She just even nodded at me when our eyes met, she never tried talking to me and I did the same.
A week after Cassy started working, I planned a performance evaluation and visited their company, which I didn't do since the time of merging. Nagulat pa ang sekretarya ko sa biglaang announcement ko, dahilan rin ng pag-panic ng mga empleyado. Pero wala naman talaga sa plano ko na bigyan ng buong atensyon ang ginagawang evaluation, alibi ko lang iyon para mabisita ko siya.
But the heck, I even controlled the company's work flow just for her, and still I ended up seeing her from a far leaving the company's premises with that damn friend of hers. I was told that she has an important and urgent business meeting outside so she was not able to accompany me. Pero bakit kasama niya pa rin ang lalaking iyon? Ginawa niya ba iyong assistant niya? At gaano ba ka-urgent ang business meeting na iyon at hindi niya magawang batiin man lang ako?
Dahil nawala ako sa mood, mga empleyado tuloy nabuntonan ko ng inis ko. Kahit maliit na mali, nabigyang pansin ko. Mabuti nalang at nakontrol ko pa ang sarili ko at wala akong na fired on the spot.
Umuwi ulit akong nakatunganga dahil sa katahimikan ng paligid. Our house looks so dark and gloomy. It's maybe why I feel so empty and alone.
I was used to this when I went home after work months ago. Medyo wala akong pakialam noon, I just sleep early and rest. Pero ngayon, iba na yata ang nakasanayan ko. I was used to seeing her asleep in our room when I went home late or seeing her enjoying watching series and eating the food I brought or cooked when I went home early.
Tama nga si Yong. My life was changed and I am not the same me. What should I do? Until now, wala pa rin akong specific na gustong mangyari. Nalilito pa rin ako sa gusto kong gawin.
Should I get her back or just... let her go? She's seems fine without me.
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