A Glimpse Into My Brain

Health

I don't want to deal with this
I feel like crying
How could this happen
I want to be mad at the doctors
But I'm not

They didn't think it would be this
They thought it was nothing
There was a good chance it would be nothing
But of course
Of. Fucking. Course.
It wasn't nothing
It never seems to be nothing

None of us thought it was that bad
Of course I had been anxious about it
I'm anxious about anything doing with her health
I thought this could be an option
I didn't think I would actually be right
I hate this so much

(26/6/21)