Guardian Angel \\ l.h.\\ Luke Hemmings

Chapter Thirty Five: Answers

What if there was a re do button in life?

That one mistake on a test, that time you stuttered through a speech, or that time you cried because a friend was being mean. What if with one click of a button everything could start a new?

You could be more confident, more daring, more spontaneous. You could take that trip you always wanted to or be that person you always wanted to be.

The only price is, you have to take your life. You have to restart completely new, from the moment of birth.

Also, there's a slightly (well 100 percent) chance that you won't remember your old life.

But just that single new start, fresh for new mistakes and tears, is right there, at anytime.

This was what Luke was explaining to me. This is why I couldn't remember him.

"I don't understand what you are saying?" It came out more as a question, not sure how to respond. I was left in an undoubtable state of confusion since I was sure I never meet Luke before any of this.

He looked at me with eyes puddled with sadness that I wanted to kiss away. I never wanted to see that expression on Luke, it was too hideous for his beautiful features.

"Do you remember when I told you that I was born in 1920?" He said each word slowly and carefully as if each was piece was a part of a special puzzle.

I had to trace my memory back to months away but I nodded in response, he told me when he first tutored me.

His eyes locked with mine as he spoke, "So were you. You were born in 1920, March 17th 1920. But you can't remember that."

"Luke what are you talking ab-"

"You have her spirit. I wasn't absolutely sure in the beginning but now I am." He paused, his eyes reviving memories he seemed to have kept locked away. "Except you weren't Cayden, you were Amelia and I was downright in love with you."

I let silence be my answer, encouraging him to continue on, "We were sixteen when we met on the banks of a lake one day, I was just walking around until I saw you. You had the most charming smile and I couldn't help to let you slip away. It was so strange but with your one smile, I saw us; I knew I wanted to be that cause of that smile, I knew I wanted to see that smile every single day. I ended up trying to impress you but I fell into the lake."

He chuckled at the thought as it replay through his mind, "We promised to meet the next day at the same lake, this time I surpised you with a picnic. We talked until nightfall and I remember leaving that day, beaming brighter then the sun and the stars combined. After that I courted you with an infinite amount of flowers until you finally gave in. Our parents were ecstatic, you were ecstatic, and I was beyond ecstatic. I never told you this but I always thought I loved you more then you could ever. I never question your love for me, but you would never understand that I just couldn't live without you. Your smile became my smile, your laughter became my laughter, your battles became my battles, your frowns became my frowns, you became the other half of me. We were so good for each other that it was deadly, I knew it but I didn't mind because I had you. I remember this one time-" He paused shaking his head at amusement.

"This one time we attended a party together, it was nice with all our friends but you were bored. You always wanted an adventure, you never wanted to be chained to one place. We ended up leaving way before the party was supposed to end. You begged me to go the lake even though it was very late but I did it just for you, I would do anything for you. On the banks of the lake we just laid in the dirt, you ruined your brand new coral dress but you laughed because you said the dirt made it better. That's what I loved about you. I loved that you never demanded new dresses every week or wanted the most luxurious jewels. You were simple and eccentric and I couldn't help but to fall in love with you more every single day. You made it so easy too, it was like a reflex. Anyway we laid on the ground and looked at the stars for hours and hours. You told me you wondered what the stars were like in Paris and then fell asleep. And then that's when I got an idea."

He looked at me to make sure my concentration was in tact, "I wanted to take you to Paris to get married. We were only eighteen but love never had an age or a limit. I asked my parents and of course yours, they all surprisingly were open to the idea. I had everything prepared that day. The roses, the candles, even the ring. It was my mother's that was her mother's mothers. The ring was different instead of a diamond there was a single pearl. When I saw that ring, I saw you in it, I knew it was perfect."

His eyes immediately became hurt and his voice strained a bit, "We- we were supposed to meet at the lake the night I planned. But-but you never came. You never came. At first I was dumbfounded, I thought your friends were keeping you. But as I waited more my heart was cracking, not fully broken, but cracking. It cracked all the way until I went to your house to confront you."

He inhaled a breathe, waiting a few minutes before he could speak, "There were pieces of metal everywhere. There was broken glass and- and in the middle of your street was your car and another completely smashed. And you-you were, you were already gone. You had lost too much blood. And that's when my heart shattered, totally, utterly, piece by piece shattered."

He was holding back tears by sniffling as I wrapped my arms around him, "I couldn't breathe, I felt like someone knocked the life out of me. I couldn't cry because I felt empty, I felt like all of me suddenly shriveled to nothing. Everyone tried to comfort me in the hospital but I just walked with my head down. I went home that night and I-I-"

"What happened Luke? What did you do?" I mumbled into the skin of his neck, afraid to hear the answer.

"I took my life that night. I couldn't live without you. It was better to be with no matter where we were, then to be without you."

I didn't ask how he took his life or what made him come to that rational. I remained silent, the breathe knocked out me.

Luke my beautiful angel Luke became one because of a tragedy of love.

"Wait if your my angel now what happened up there?" I suddenly realized that if he transcended, shouldn't we be together right now?

"You weren't there sweetheart. You already used your second chance up." He mumbled.

"Is a second chance given to everyone?" I asked, somehow with all literal analysis, I thought of this second chance and how I was trying to obtain it.

"Yeah, it is given to everyone but hardly anyone uses it because we don't what will happened. You don't know anything and your memory gets completely erased. But I guess that why gambling is so popular, you want to take that chance. I guess it's all in the thrill." He shifted his one of his hands so that he was holding mine while the other secured me. "I thought that when I got up there I would see you and everyone hung would be okay. But I couldn't find you and I found out that you had used your second chance. Then I discovered what the second life is all about from a girl name Mina."

"You mean the red headed girl? Is she an angel too?" I pondered to him, she didn't wear any white clothes.

"Something alone the lines of that, she just makes sure I do my job. But when I was gone I asked her to watch over you." He explained.

"Don't ever do that again please." Referring to his departure, "I can't bear you leaving again."

His voice turned a bit as if he was hiding something, "I won't leave you again sweet heart not ever."

But I chose to ignore it, yet I should have known better.