Guardian Angel \\ l.h.\\ Luke Hemmings

Chapter Twenty: Instructions

In the morning, Luke and I decided it was best to skip school. Partly because I was still a mess from last night's events and I didn't want to give my peers another chance to tease me. And maybe, just maybe, deep way deep down, I wanted to spend time with Luke. And part of me wanted to take the actual time and effort to begin healing myself. It was time, I'm so sick of the endless tears and hurt.

I am tired. Tired of being  imprisoned in the cages of my own mind, I am tired of all the hurtful words and comments, I am tired of hating myself. I wm just tired.

"I need to change right away." I mumbled, hugging my knees to my chest. Currently, I was placed on my bed waiting for Luke.

When we woke up, he told me that he had to go somewhere and he would be back in matter of an hour or two. And unsuprisingly, Silvia didn't even check up on me at all. My body could have been lifeless and she would never know.

I had never in my life attempted to take my own breath away. I had thoughts from time to time but that's what they just were, thoughts. Yet, last night everything just seemed a dream, a dream gone terribly wrong. I wouldn't classify it as a nightmare because a nightmare would be when everything is dark, right now I'm close to a nightmare but I have something. I have a little speck of light, other wise known as Luke Hemmings.

Right now, he's my only hope. My own body is mentally and physically exhausted from fighting with myself.

The window opened, allowing a cool almost winter breeze into my room. It hit the back of my black jacket provoking me to turn my head to a white, angelic boy whose quiff was high and eyes as bright as ever.

He gracefully crawled into my room, once he planted both feet he dusted off the knees of his pants.

"Good morning sweetheart." He smiled at me and immediately went to the bed to cloak me in his arms.

"Morning." I grumbled, I didn't mean to sound unhappy at his presence but it accidentally let out to be that way.

"How are you?" He gently held me tighter, making sure to not let me go. As if I even had the energy to run away from him.

"I'm drained, upset, confused, and alone." I whispered, feeling unmanagable tears forming.

What has my life come to? Was all this pain really worth it?

"Cayden, sweetheart, stop thinking about that. It's okay, you're here right now and I'm not letting you go." And then he did the unthinkable. He kissed my forehead and although it wasn't any contact on the lips, I felt sparks after his touch and they wouldn't fade.

"Come on." He said as he stood up.

"Where are we going?" I asked. I thought we were just planning to spend all day in bed, not get up and push me into the world that I was trying to avoid.

"We are going for a walk." Was all he said before he lightly tugged me off my blankets and grabbed my hand.

Our conversation was light, simple topics sprouted from the weather to what were going to do today. He was making sure to lightly dance around last night's dramatic event, after all it was still a fresh wound.

Before I realized it, Luke had guided me into the forest. I hadn't been here since we ditched that one day and I found myself and him following the path to that secret little place amongst the trees.

He used his hand to pave out some vines that were blocking the sight of the small hide out. Hardly anything had changed, the stumps were still there and everything was as fresh and green as the last time. A major contrast to the rest of the dull, browning forest.

I walked toward the stumps that were in the middle in the area. On one of them was a clipboard and a finely sharpened pencil.

"Luke what is this?" I turned around, expecting him to be there but he wasn't.

"Luke?" I called out but there was no reponse only the chirps of birds were heard off into the distance.

I sighed and decided, since I had no other choice, to sit on the log and pick up the clipboard.

Across the top, in his neat handwriting were the instructions:

Write a letter to yourself

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