He's Dating the Campus Nerd

Change Fifty - Eight : Last Beat.

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CHANGE FIFTY – EIGHT : LAST BEAT.

Nathan's POV :

It's been four months since that day. Four months of waiting for her to come back, four months of hope. I sigh, every day was like a nightmare. Nightmare I would like to escape. It was like a torture—every time I hear the sounds of the machine, it tears me apart.

I didn't knew I can handle this, seeing the love of my life almost lifeless. But I would never give up on her, as she never gave up on me. I held her hand as I plant soft kisses on the back of her hand, maybe this could help her feel that someone is waiting for her.

"I miss you." I whispered as I close my eyes. Every time I close my eyes, all I see is her. The way she smiles and looks at me—her captivating stares, her everything. I'm going crazy again and so I grab her voice recorder—I plug the earphones in my ears and listen to her lovely voice.

I would never get tired of listening to this, over and over again.

I bit my lower lip as I felt the pain in my chest. Damn, I miss seeing this pretty lady in front of me—all alive than ever. I stood up and lean forward to kiss her forehead, "I'll be back." I whispered as I stare at her perfection.

I made my way outside her room, hands on my pocket—I wandered myself around, it was a busy day yet all I could hear is her voice, "From the first time I met you up today, you never fail to amuse me. You're so cold and no one can tame your emotionless heart yet nagawa ko. I'm so great diba?" She chuckles, "I was surprised nung malaman kong matagal mo na kong gusto ko but some part of me felt really happy. Kasi sa dinami dami ng magagandang babae, ako ung napansin mo."

I smiled upon hearing it, this is the only thing that keeps me strong. Listening to her voice over and over again, reminscing memories with her. That's what I hold on to—she will be back I know.

She'll come back to me.

I went straight through the Hospital's garden, sat on a bench and stare at the clouds. It's a very fine day today. "I'm so sorry for being a burden. I'm so sorry for pushing you away, I'm so sorry for being insensitive. I didn't mean any of those things. Nasaktan kita ng sobra, I was so selfish. Gustong gusto kitang kalimutan non but I can't. A part of me wasn't ready to let you go," Every time she says this things, I can't stop smiling.

When I knew that they will be coming back from Korea, I wasn't ready. I mean, who would be ready seeing his girl again after being apart for 3 years? It's fckin' crazy. It was driving me insane, what should I do? What do I need to do when she comes back?

Damn, I was a mess back then.

I don't even know how to face her. Nasaktan ko siya, I know I didn't mean it pero sino ba namang gago ang magpapanggap na okay lang sa kanya lahat diba? I wasn't ready but as I saw her, God knows how much I want to hug her tight. She was so perfect that every night I questioned myself, why did I let them tear as apart?