He's Dating the Campus Nerd

Change Four : Jerk.

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CHANGE FOUR : JERK.

Sabrina's POV :

"I'll see you around then?" He asked smiling. I nodded and he kissed my forehead. "Text you later okay?"

"Okay." I wave goodbye and watch him walk along the corridor.

I smiled. I like Jhano, I really do but not enough to want him to be with me. Siguro, it takes time? I already pictured my future with him pero hanggang dun lang yun.

Alam niyo ung 'What if's'?

What if siya ang pinili ko at hindi si Nathan?

What if mas nauna akong nainlove sa kanya?

What if naging kami? Masaya kaya ako?

What if, what if blah blah blah.

I felt a little guilt at the same time regret. Why? Kasi lagi parin siyang nanjan sakin even though I broke his heart several times. He was always there at never niya kong tinalikuran. Regrets? Yes, I felt somehow regret kasi I fell in love with the wrong guy.

It's not that nagsisisi ako pero to sum it all up, I guess I just choosed the wrong one on the right time. And let's go the right one at the wrong time. You know, walang fall back? I don't know, it just felt so right loving the wrong guy.

I shrug and walked through the MMA building. Wala nga pala akong kasabay, ugh. Hindi kasi kami magkakasabay ng pasok, may umaga at may mga tanghali na. It's been a week, since our gathering it was fun yet erhh--awkward and yes! Irritating.

I rolled my eyes ng maalala ko na naman yon. Kainis! He was acting so immature! I mean, napaka insensitive niyang tao! He so straight forward, napaka confident pa niya sa mga pinagsasabi niya, like okay? Mapapa iling ka na lang talaga.

Wala na kong nararamdaman sa kanya, I'm 101% sure of it. I can even make eye contact with him nang hindi nakakaramdam ng pagka ilang. I have moved on, then a thought hit me.

Out of nowhere a playful smile formed my lips. "Is he still not over me?" I chuckled. Yeah, hindi naman niya i - oopen ung topic na yun kung wala na siyang feelings sakin?

But it was beyond impossible, siya ung nakipaghiwalay. I shrug, siguro masyado lang akong nag - ooverthink. What we had was already over.

And when somethings finished, it's finished.

When somethings done, it's done.

Thus, our relationship was already over 3 years ago. So what with the fuss diba? Why open that topic? We had the 'talk' 3 years ago. Well, parang closure na din naman ata yun diba? But unlike the other closures, I look like a fragile girl crying in front of a cold monster begging him to stay.

Yeah, hindi pa nga yun closure pero it's done. I'm okay with it kaya there's nothing to deal with.

I continued walking, I brushed my hands on my hair. Some are staring at me habang naglalakad ako sa may hall, ngumingiti sila ganun din ako. Namumukhaan ko ung iba dito, sila din ung sa Park-Hyun Academy, meron ding mga ka batch ko dati.

I stopped when a girl around 2nd year blocked my way. She was so cute, naka glasses siya tapos naka hairband habang nakangiti. I remembered myself at her.

I was that nerd everyone hates.

I smiled. "Hi." I greeted. She resembles me, para akong nakatingin sa sarili ko in someone else's perspective.