Zach's Present
☣ ♡ ☣
I drop my pen and push away from the desk with a loud scraping of my chair legs against the floor. Giana's head snaps up at the sound and within seconds she's next to me taking my hands in hers her voice calm but firm, "Look at me, sweetheart." I feel my chest constricting and try to look at her, but I can't. She doesn't need me to say anything simply wrapping her arms around me hugging me from behind and plants a soft kiss on the back of my neck letting her lips linger there. I feel myself relaxing as I close my eyes and before I can even ask, she begins to softly sing.
🎼
Even if we can't find heaven, heaven, heaven, heaven
Hands put your empty hands in mine
And scars show me all the scars you hide
And hey, if your wings are broken
Please take mine 'til yours can open too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Oh, tears make kaleidoscopes in your eyes
And hurt, I know you're hurting but so am I
And love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down
We can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven
I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Yeah, you're all I never knew I needed
And the heart, sometimes it's unclear why it's beating
And love, if your wings are broken
We can brave through those emotions too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
And oh, truth I guess truth is what you believe in
And faith, I think faith is having a reason
And I know, know love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down
We can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven
I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
I'll be your eyes 'til yours can shine
And I'll be your arms I'll be your steady satellite
And when you can't rise
Well, I'll crawl with you on hands and knees 'cause
I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down (Hey)
We can find a way to break through (Come on)
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven (Hey)
I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love you're not alone
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Love you're not alone
Oh, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, heaven, heaven, heaven
I'm gonna stand by you
🎼
Do you remember before when I mentioned I would tell you later what song? That was the one and, well, it's one she has sung to me so many times it's ingrained in my heart, soul, and mind. Just as she said she would, she continued to reassure me with her hug, touch, kisses, and song until I had calmed down and my breathing had returned to normal. Even after that she didn't let go and I was grateful because I felt if she did let go, I'd simply die.
I don't know how long she held because time has no meaning when I'm in her arms. The only thing that matters in those moments is that I know how unconditionally loved I am by her.
My voice is soft when I speak, "I don't know how you do it My Sunflower."
She kisses the back of my neck again before allowing me to guide her around the chair and into my lap once again. "Do what sweetheart?"
I look up at her and melt at the way she runs her fingers through my hair. "You know what."
She smiles and gently places her hand on my cheek. "My Love you know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you. I love you and it's because I love you that I know."
I feel tears form and melt when she cups my face kissing me gently. I of course return the kiss with every ounce of love I possess then she kisses my forehead as I rest my head against her chest.
Remember when I said I have found many words to be synonymous with Giana? Well, another one is Safe. When I think of Giana, I think of the word safe because that is how she makes me feel. There was a time when I never felt safe, and I'll get to that later. I hold Giana as close as possible, and she lets me without any words having to be said because she knows I just need her there.
This may sound strange to some people, but she smells safe too. Yeah, I know like I said some of you may think it's strange but just take a moment to think about it and I bet you'll realize there's something or someone like that for you.
Anyways Giana's voice is soft when she speaks, "Just breathe Zach Love."
I take a deep breath in following her instruction and drink in the scent of safety that is Giana. I know that in a little while I'll be able to pick my pen up again and continue writing because Giana is right here with me and all I have to do is Just Breathe.
☣ ♡ ☣
YOU ARE READING
Toxic
General FictionSuffocated. Manipulated. Abused. ☣️ ~ Toxic ~ ☣️ That's the easiest way to sum up what you're about to read. Though I assure you it was no easy thing to put all of this down on paper. It was the longest three months of my life and it was hell. My w...
