A Chaos Called Love ❤️

11

Restless!
That's what his statement made her feel. Its been half an hour since they ended the video call, she didn't reality speak much to Taniya about it and Taniya also gave her time to comprehend and went to sleep. Shehnaaz was tossing and turning on the bed, she tried to sleep but her brain won't stop talking to itself.
It was 2 AM in the morning but she was still wide awake, she also wanted to know whether he had done his dressing or not but how would she initiate the conversation as she thought it would be inappropriate to give him any hope or hint . But the heart wants what it wants. There's no logic to these things.So finaly after fighting with her urges she gave in.

"Is your dressing done?"She pinged her

Sidharth was waiting for some kind of initiative from her side, her message made him exhilarated. He wanted to types all his misery , wanted to explain how afflicted he was but all he could do was sent her a picture of his hand, which he himself had dressed .

" Is there any pain?" she asked.

" I wish I could tell you how much" he replied and it didn't take even a moment for Shehnaaz to interpret what he actually meant, she didn't have on iota of doubt on what he was saying. She knew he was in pain, a pain which was persistent in her life too but how would she ease his pain, isn't it too late ? Wasn't he some other woman's man? Her heart ruminated.

" I wish I was in a position to help, see a doctor tomorrow , Good night." She wrote what she thought was apt. And Sidharth was mopish and glum. He had this beleive that the opposite of love is not hate but indifference, and her indifference was lethal.
" Good night" he replied, He too could not sleep and the scary thing about sleepless night is not the hours lost for sleeping but the re-run of thoughts you've been trying to avoid. He had this sudden urge to see her again, when he remembered that Taniya had sent some pictures earlier in the evening which he didn't had the time to see .
He unlocked his phone and saw the pictures sent by Taniya in the joint watsapp group of the Oberois and the Shergills.. A group administered by Shehnaaz's monther, the name was as unique as Pammi Shergill herself, it's called "the ober-gills" .

He saw a beautiful picture of Taniya and Shehnaaz sitting in the lobby of the majestic Rambagh palace.
Shehnaaz looked beautiful but her eyes had a certain kind of agony.
Looking at that pain in her eyes, he felt a closeness with her that he had never experienced with anyone else, a pain which looked familiar,Like they shared something powerful and unspoken, something so deep and beyond the understanding of this universe.
Shehnaaz was a spoil brat in It's true sense, she just wanted everything in her own terms and conditions. But why she surrenders herself completely in front of him, As if he owns her, isn't he talking advantage of her capitulation?
Wasn't he cashing in on the fact that she was too soft and yielding only for him?
All these questions were still to be answered. Questions whose answer he himself was not ready to seek he just knew that she was like a dream, a distant dream . The kind of dream which make you forget your reality and the kind of deam which is so enticing that you loathe your reality.
But can someone decide to leave everything and move to a dreamland?
Was it even possible?
if yes, how can one do it without being called crazy or greedy.
He knew he was going to pay for his impulses. He knew he was being selfish, impatient and a little insecure but anyways what has he achieved after being extremely calculative? Sometimes the only way out is letting go of what's holding you back and see what comes next . He didn't realised when sleep engulfed him.

" Sidharth Bhiya , Aunty ji ne break fast ke liye niche bulaya hai" one of their servent said knocking the door waking him up.It was 9 in the morning.

" Yeah, 10 mins" he said, before going down he went to his balcony for a smoke, he knew his smoking had multifolded in last three days but he didn't knew any other way to ally his disquiet. His phone pinged again, it was Nayan.
" Congratulations for your engagement, I should not have left from the event like that.Tiara called up to say Sorry, let's bygone be bygone , don't want to discuss it any further , let's hang out in the evening" he had written. Sidharth was also conscience stricken though he still didn't forgive him for his lustful comments on Shehnaaz but decided to give him another chance, he knew they will have to cross paths anyways.
" Hey! Sure buddy Ghar aaja" Sidharth replied.
" Alright 5 baje milta hoon." Nayan confirmed and Sidharth went downstairs to their dining area to witness Tiara and His mother bonding over coffee.