A Chaos Called Love ❤️

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"Wine reminds me of you, it tastes like how your lips tasted that day". She said and as it is said that it takes just a second and your whole life can get turned upside down.It was that moment for Sidharth. It felt as if his heart stopped and then it raced, as if first came the shock of not understanding what's happening, then came the shock of realizing precisely what had happened.

"You know,it gives the best of highs
But also the worst of hangovers, just like you " she uttered, still tracing his lips with her fingers when she suddenly retrieved her fingers, lifted her head from his lap sad sat beside her.

"You are like an addiction and once I got that taste of your lips which tasted like wine and chocolate , I could never stop myself from feeling the wine against my lips again and again ,even if I was getting eaten alive with guilt for doing it" she was being blatant and bold but the proximity didn't go well well her, she was getting restless.

" Tell me one thing why did you ruin my first kiss?" She said, little louder. This question came as a dagger to him.He knew that she never dated anyone but the way she termed it as her 'first kiss' made him perplexed. He was still in a state of shock.He just realised how screwed up their life had become just because of his lies which he had said to himself, infact he had listens to his own lie to a point that he couldn't distinguish the truth within him, or around him.

" Why why why?" She kept repeating.
And things were clearly visible in front of him, he could connect the dots,why she didn't talk to him when she was in London, why she went away without a proper parting and even after trying to avoid him for more then three years why she gave in to his whims. .....

" Shehnaaz, baby , listen .... Will you listen to me " He tried to calm her down.

" Do not call me that, it's a curse for me, do you understand curse" she lashed out.

" Shehnaaz, sirf Shehnaaz... Not your friends sisters, not your father's friends daughter, not your sister's best friend only Shehnaaz.... I feel fucking suffocated bearing the burden of these ties now . You tell me now what are we to each other ? You tell me ,kal pucha tha na aapne, I didn't reply because I don't know" she just spurted, standing infront of him, holding the harness of the swing.

" Tell me Sidharth what are we to each other? You asked me main wapas kyun ayi? Now you tell me why did you call me" she carried on, Sidharth was not in a condition to counter, there is only one kind of shock worse than the totally unexpected one ,the expected ones for which one is not prepared. He was in that shock.

" What did you say mujhe Shehnaaz chaiye? kyun ?apko Shehnaaz kyun chaiye? Mere mazak banake rakha hai".she was growling.She took one strides toward him and grabbed his tshirt's neck line, when he tried to speak something she slapped him, quick and hard, and then her eyes widened as she realized what she had done. "Oh, I'm sorry." She quickly apolozed and started crying.The slap was nothing infront of the punch life had banged on his face.

"Please baith ja, please, lemonade pee" he said trying to pacify her but she didn't listen and started going towards her room and all at once he yanked her hand and made her sit on the swing.He turned her face back to him slowly, almost lazily holding her chin.He looked at her with his gleaming eyes and brought her to his warm embrace.And she was in his arms in no time, She sank her face into his chest and he felt wild and hot and dangerously close to out of control. He thrash his hand into her hair and pulled her face backward to look into her eyes.

He was getting hints about what this feeling is called. Yes it was that feeling which he never had felt for anyone. He knew that he had found his soul mate but at the wrong time. He found his calm in the middle of a Chaos..
He wanted to shout "I love you, but..."
Yet the "but" takes away the 'I love you'. In love there is ne no conditions, It's just there, and always. No beginning, no end. Not a feeling that comes and goes at the whim of the emotions. He knew this is not the time to spell it out to her