A Chaos Called Love ❤️

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Sidharth

How do I name an emotion which even I am unable to comprehend, what do I name this relationship which we share!
I am engaged, Tiara is my fiancee but still whenever my mind wanders, it always finds it's way back to Shehnaaz.
Isn't it insane!
How can I simply be normal with her when every time I look at her, I think about how much more I really want from her . I can't see her even talking to anyone and took at the irony, I, myself is an engaged man.
She is so much more than I deserve, than I dared to want.
But Does she feels the same way?
We already had this sense of belonging.She had always been a part of my existence.
Had she spoken the truth when she had said incalculable times that she wanted me , directly or indirectly!
Was is really her naive banters or she actually meant those claims.
How many times did I feel that strong inclination towards her and how many time I have seen her looking at me with those yearning eyes !
wasn't it obvious that what we shared was something celestial something so beautiful and ethereal.
Did I miss the sign universe was hinting towards?
Ah, but it's fairly obvious that morons, like me, are always going to be the very last ones to figure it all out!
How many times have I stayed in denial, amazing how things are getting much more obvious after it it's late late, too late !

Shehnaaz- ( knocking the door) aa jaun ?

Sidharth- do you really need to knock,aaja, padhai done?

Shehnaaz- yeah, drop kar doge?

Sidharth- tu aj ruk ja, already 11 baj chuke hain.Taniya ke room main so ja jaake.

Shehnaaz- no kal subhe maths tuition hai, jabse 12th main ayi hoon bhayankar dar lagta hau, what do you feel main acha karungi?

Sidharth- of course baby, acha sun abhi I need to finish a work okay,I need to finalize a design and send it to U.S. abhi unka working hours chal rahe hain,ek ghate baad drop karunga, agar sleepy hai to so ja , utha Dunga .

Shehnaaz- no ,no, main bio revision kar leti hoon , ap kaam khatam karo.

( It was an everyday affair, Shehnaaz used to study with Taniya, many a times Sidharth used to help her with maths, after studies they would spend some time listening to random music, talking about anything and everything, discussing movie and at time life and he would drop her home, they had became inseparable even since he had returned from U.S after a year long hiatus, it's been 3 months since he had returned and their relationship had started to intensify)

Shehnaaz- kuch puchun.

Sidharth- hmmm...

Shehnaaz- kal cyber hub chalein?

Sidharth- hmm

Shehnaaz- I have tuition in the morning then I can study till 4, phir sab chalenge. Bowling karenge okay.

Sidharth- hmmm

Shehnaaz- Apne kabhi woh kiya hai.

Sidharth- hmmm

Shehnaaz- kiya hai?

Sidharth-Hmmmm kya?

Shehnaaz- woh Jo, woh hota hai na .

Sidharth- Shehnaaz bolna hai toh bol or else shut your mouth and study. abhi tu revision kar rahi thi na,ab kya hua?

Shehnaaz- acha sorry puchti hoon,...... woh...... Woh Jo hota hai na ........ Jo log reproduction ke liye karte hain .

Sidharth-what( he was shocked, never expected her to ask such invasive question).

Shehnaaz- you know I have a friend who has done that, uske parents Ghar pe nahin the aur uska boyfriend joint study ke liye gaya tha. You know humare class aur bhi logon ne kiya hai.