January 30, 2013
Why am i doing this to myself
Why do I stop myself from trying
Why am I trying at all
This hurt
This pain
Just take it away
That was our deal
What happened?
Now were stepping a part
Why do I bother
Girl, you have my heart
Give It back before it splits in half
Because it's already cracked
And You don't even know
Because I told you that I'd be loyal to you
And the sad thing is
That I am
But you on the other hand are a different story
Give me what I have left
Before you crushing it completely
You may not know this
But the words I love you
Do have a meaning.
Into: I can't hardly take this
Tone: confused/ desperate
Conclusion: Matrina. If I could show you that there's more to competition than maybe we'd get somewhere. I realize now that you were trying to show Skyler that you could grab the attention of more than one man and yes, I fell. I told Skyler a little analogy that wasn't a straight forward you and me but she knows that Im hurt and she knows that I'm hurting. You don't have to compete for the center of attention darling. I promise. It's not everything. Lucy's mad at you for what you've done. Ever since you made a hire ranking than him once you've been a bit arrogant and that's what's pissing him off. And I see it too. It's bad. We haven't talked in a while. I tried to get your attention today but I introduced it in the wrong way and made you mad. I'm sorry. But what I really wanted to say was. Is it okay if we just tried it? You and me? I mean. Technically it has been that way and I know you don't want to dedicate but I want to show you that it's okay to accept a hand from a loyal friend. Trust me. Yes, we won't last forever. That's pretty obvious. But let me try. Let me get you to smile. Please darling... Just please.

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Atonement?
PoetryWe all have regrets. We all smile. We all frown. Sometimes all we need is an encouraging word from others or seeing that someone else is also going through pain to understand one's self. In this book which consist of poems, entries, and thoughts the...