Still Into You

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#SIY

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Yunah's POV

I sighed as I get up from my bed, it's been three days since I broke up with Rai. Three days, still I haven't get out of my room or see the world outside.

I just stay here sitting infront of my window, staring at nothing. I don't have energy to cry, I feel so drained cuz' I already cry for whole day after our break up.

Sinabihan ko rin si Ate Cath na wag papapasukin si Rai and she just nodded without asking me anything. She just left trays of food infront of my door with a note just for me to eat.

I'm so glad I have her, I felt less lonely.

Tinitigan ko yung sarili ko sa salamin, damn I look like a mess. Emotions left my eyes, my hair is so damn messy and my skin is so pale.

Naligo ako and wear a comfy clothes, huminga muna ako ng malalim bago ko buksan ang pinto. Parehas kaming gulat ni Ate Cath nang magkabanggaan kami. She was about to place the tray infront of my door and I was about to go out.

Tila gulat na gulat siya na I finally went out of my cave. "Hi?" Mahinang sambit ko. "Y-yunah?" She stuttered.

"Tara kain tayo sa baba" Inakbayan ko siya and motioned her downstairs. "Ang sarap ng luto mo this days ah" She looks at me weirdly.

Maybe she's thinking that I'm acting weird, trying to be fun with no emotions in eyes.

She sighed and put the tray on the table. "Inoorder ko lang yun sa labas" Humarap siya sakin and fix my hair. "Okay ka na?" She ask worriedly and I nodded.

"I'm completely fine, Ate"

Well, I hope I am.

Nakaupo ako sa garden habang pinapanood si Chase na naglalaro sa damuhan. He's getting bigger now, he is turning 2 years old I think?

I enhaled the air and closed my eyes, I want to relax myself even for awhile.

I miss him.

Gusto ko siyang tawagan, gusto kong bawiin lahat ng sinabi ko, gusto ko siyang makita at mayakap but I can't. I badly want to regret my decisions but this is the best for the both of us.

Ayoko na madamay siya sa kung ano mang gulo ng buhay ko. I want him to become a better person and I can't risk anything just to ruin him.

Rai do help me escape from my reality for awhile but I cannot escape from it permanently.

Kapag magkasama kami, I feel like I am the most happiest person in the world. I forgot all the pain that I have, I forgot all the thoughts that is clouding my mind. But when I came back home, welcomed by our big empty house.

Nararamdaman ko na naman yung pain at loneliness, I smile and laugh infront of him but I cry all my eyes out when I'm alone.

Him wanting to share my pain with him makes me think that he'll walk to the path of thorns barefoot just to be with me.