Looking at you side ways

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The following week Meredith comes in the house and listens. It's late and it doesn't sound like Mark has company. She tiptoes up the stairs and opens the door to their room. He's in the chair reading a medical journal.

She says softy, "Hi."

"Um...Hi. I have been waiting for you."

Derek puts the journal down and gives her his full attention.

She curls up in his lap and they kiss gently. She loves being in his arms.

She twists her watch nervously and says, "Um... Derek. Can I ask you something?"

He gives her the McDreamy smile and says, "You can ask me anything."

"Ah...I haven't had a lot of experience with guys. I mean sexual experience with guys. I've only slept with a few and I mean...crap..You've been with probably hundreds and I...I mean, is it okay? The sex? Is it enough for you? Am I enough for you?"

Derek says angrily, "Meredith. Where is this coming from? Did somebody say something to you again?"

"No! No. I just...I just am ..curious."[i] Meredith had been in the pit with Cristina when two seventeen year old cheerleaders had come in. They had spent the entire time getting stitched up talking about their sex lives in vivid detail. Meredith knew in the sex department, she was a fetus compared to those girls.[/i]

He says reverently, "Meredith. We've been sleeping together and having sex almost every night for weeks. You're hot and sexy and a handful. And I love making love with you. It's been the best sex of my life. And it's not just about the sex. I don't want to be with anyone else, but you. Just because I had more sex partners than you doesn't mean anything. There is quantity and then there is quality."

Meredith says, "But I didn't really have either before. I mean I can probably count on my fingers and toes the total number of times I have had sex before you."

Derek scowled and said, "I remember Jaake sleeping over and it sure sounded like it was all night. Well you weren't loud. He was loud and the bed was loud."

Meredith said seriously, "That's because I didn't come and he kept trying to get me to."

Derek laughed and said, "That makes me feel so much better."

She smacked him on the arm and said, "It's not funny! I am only loud with you. It's your fault."

He tried to keep from laughing and said, "I'm sorry Meredith. Your previously crappy sex life is not funny. And I am glad you are only loud with me." He dropped little kisses on her face.

She asked hesitantly, "Um...well don't you ever wonder why I haven't um...?"

Derek chuckled at her discomfort.[i] She was so adorably shy sometimes.[/i]

He asked gently, "Why you haven't sucked my cock?"

Meredith groaned and put her head onto his chest hiding her face.

Derek stroked her hair and he lifted up her face to his.

He smiled and said as he ran his finger along her jaw line, "I figured you would get around to it evidentially. Or you had a bad experience. Or that you hated it. Or that you're not ready. Or maybe you don't trust me enough yet. But I won't push you Meredith to do something you're not ready for. I can wait. But maybe if you tell me, I can help."

Meredith gulped hard and said, "It's not those things."

Derek looked at her confused for a moment before it hit him.

He said understandingly, "You've never done this before?"

She shook her head and admitted softy, "I've never done that before."