Kao
I blinked at the guy sitting just across me.
We were at his home office, on the huge square twenty seater conference table seated on the opposite side just looking at each other for the past thirty minutes.
I refused to speak and so did Pete.
We still haven't had our dinner yet and I was starting to get hungry but I can't seem to focus more on it with how Pete was looking at me.
His eyes seemingly poring into my soul.
The longer he did it, I felt like the deeper he'd dive into my psyche and I was afraid I would be the one to drown in the end.
I cleared my throat just so I could drown the deafening silence hanging over us.
He had told me about wanting to talk to me last time.
Which was basically the reason why I was out of sort the whole time today, barely helping with my group project.
And just when I thought thinking about the talk was unnerving, actually being there and watching it about to happen makes me feel like throwing up just then.
I should have just run to my room when he dropped me off the front door as he drove the car to the garage but instead, I nodded quietly and went straight to the home office as he told me.
I looked at him and saw that he was looking at me too.
Fvck!
He should not be doing that, really.
I bit on my lower lip as I looked around but him and it was the case for some time until I finally had enough of the awkward silence and decided to excuse myself when as I regard him, Pete spoke.
"-I was there, you know. At the hospital. That time."
I blinked at him when he finally started speaking.
But, what is he saying!?!
"I know you said so many times that you didn't want to talk about it and I'd like to honor that request but I just have to talk about it now. At this moment."
He continued as he leaned over the table towards me.
"So, please, hear me out just this once."
Pete said as he looked at me in the eye so closely and I thought, even if he didn't ask me to listen to him, I would still do anyway.
"You know the father I told you about? The one I didn't know? He showed up one day and told us he'd wanted me and my mother in his life and that if we say yes, he'd bring us back to Thailand as we'd start over anew."
So he's telling me his life story now!?!
What for?
I shrugged.
I didn't really care.
At least not that much anyway.
It's his life after all.
But I ended up listening to him and his recount and I doubt if it was really a good idea.
"My mother was ecstatic. I wasn't."
Pete leaned back on his seat as he snickered.
I suddenly thought of the time I was able to meet his mother and another surge of happiness filled me up.
So many things to look back at in the past.
So many people too.
"I wanted to get to know him. To be with him. But I want to be with you too."
