An accident// Hyunlix ff

twenty-fourth chapter (24)

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Felix felt scared. No, not scared, that's the wrong word for what he felt. He felt....followed. Stalked. He felt how Changbin kept staring at him during the whole dance practice. Yesterday he almost got...well Changbin forced a kiss and tried to go further but luckily he could escape the room before anything happened. Chan also saved him when he ran inside his room. He doesn't know what Chan said to Changbin but he knew that if Changbin did something, just a small thing like being very close physical to him, he would get in BIG trouble. 
Felix glanced at Hyunjin. He looks very tired and he doesn't have his normal dance practice clothes on. It looks like he forgot about dance practice. Well, he did come late so he probably did, but it's not normal for him. He often came on time. 

Felix quickly looked away when Hyunjin glanced at him. He tried to not show any emotions, since he were supposed to look focused on the dance practice and not lost in his own thoughts like he were.

He suddenly felt a little pain in the back. It wasn't that much of a pain so ignored it. But he knew that he would need to take care of it before anything bad happened. His mom once also had this back pain and decided to ignore it for a long time, until she had to do an operation. Thinking of his mom and his home in Sydney for the rest of the dance practice made him feel how much he's missed his mom for these now four, almost five years. He wondered if she was okay and if his sister also were okay, if they were having fun, if his sister had any changes in her life recently. But most of all he wondered if they still remembered him. That has been his biggest worry since he came to Korea. If they'd forgotten about him. Just like they decided to forget about his father.

Felix directly went to Chan after practice to talk about his back pain and ask for some help. Chan of course helped out and stretched his back a little making him feel better.
Afterwards he went to the living room to play some games on the tv but he couldn't let go of the feeling of being followed. He felt like someone stared at him all the time so he glanced all over the place even tho he still saw no one and remained alone. He turned of the game and went to his room instead and tried to listen to loud music with headphones, he tries reading, he tried to dance which normally helps, he tried to draw and he even tried to imagine things about Hyunjin. (no, not dirty stuff alr only like they were husbands and had kids)

Nothing worked. He felt like it was his own fault, for maybe worrying about his family. He got up from the bed he was laying on. Maybe I'll try to cut, he thought. Maybe it'll work.
He slowly walked up to his desk and opened one of his drawers. At first he hesitated at picking the knife up, because he knew that he probably would regret cutting himself in the future, but decided to pick it up anyways.

Felix looked at his own arm. So slim, so bare and vulnerable. The said male took a deep breath and quickly cut a little bit on his arm. The blood began to slowly get out and drop down. Felix just stood there, watching it drop one by one. He didn't know what to do now. Should he cover it up? Felix's brain had totally stopped working. The dorr was open, so anybody who walked by could see him standing there with a knife and a bleeding arm. But Felix didn't notice. He got lost in the blood. He were just staring at it, thinking about nothing, hearing nothing and only seeing the blood, not being able to move. So when he suddenly was on the floor under a crying person he were kind of shocked.
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Hello!

I am so sorry for not updating in a long time, I've been on a school trip and today I got summer break! So yeh it's been a lot happening in my life recently but I guess there'll be many updates now these two upcoming months! (half of June, then July and August)

Hope your having or getting a great day/ night and I LUV YA! Cya next chapterrr...which maybe will be a little more sad than this one so prepare your tissues...or else Minho will take 'em. :D