NCT One-Shots

If You Want My Love|YuJohn ft. DoHyuck

   Yuta x Johnny ft. Doyoung x Haechan

The sound of giggling alerts of Johnny of the couple before he sees them. Haechan and Doyoung appear hand-in-hand, blushes on their faces as they walk past their friend.

Johnny forces a polite smile on his face as he waits for them to get out of his sight so he can plunge into his sadness in peace.

It gets worse when he hears Haechan shriek and yell at Doyoung to stop poking him, followed by Doyoung yelling that it's unfair for him to be tickled.

Johnny steps out onto the terrace, shutting the door behind him so he can stop fueling his depressive thoughts.

He barely notices when the door slides open and shuts again, signalling the presence of another person.

And then he feels them, their smaller frame up against his back as their arms squeeze into him from their place around his body. Then he feels a chin dig into his shoulder, the pressure easing when they move their head, allowing him to feel their long hair tickling his neck so now he's sure of who this is.

"We ordered pizza", Yuta informs him, voice as soothing as ever despite the simple sentence.

Johnny stays quiet, not having the heart to say anything without breaking out into tears. He knows Yuta will let him, that he won't judge, but that's not the problem. He just hates being sad enough to cry.

Yuta holds his friend tighter, admiring the light up city beneath them and the shadows of the mountains in the distance.

The bustling of cars, noise from the neighbors, and whatever else is alive that evening fills up the silence of the two males, relaxing them both but more Yuta.

Two minutes later the door slides open. Yuta glances back to see Jungwoo staring at Johnny in concern.

"The pizzas here."

Yuta feels Johnny tense up. When he looks at his face, he's staring blankly in front of him, only worrying him more.

Johnny slowly counts down the seconds before Yuta releases him. If it's only gonna take a moment, he doesn't want to go even a second with the comfort of being held. Usually when someone lets go, unless they're Haechan, they don't hold him again.

And he knows Haechan isn't gonna hold him. He can't since he's too busy with his boyfriend. His boyfriend that's not Johnny.

"Can you get it for us please?" He hears Yuta ask softly, shocking him.

Jungwoo nods and slides the door shut behind him.

Yuta turns back to Johnny and reaches his hand to caress his hair, readjusting his grip on the male, trying to get them impossibly close.

"I know you don't want me to let go", he starts quietly, almost speaking in his ear. "And I don't wanna let go of you either. I just want to be here for you 'cause I know you're hurting and I wish I could take it away." Yuta chuckles without humor. "Nobody really mentions the fact that you spiral when you're having a hard time and I know you are right now. I don't know what your mind is telling you but the one thing I really don't want you to think is that you're not loved. We love you a lot, Johnny. You're perfect, okay? I love you."

Johnny sniffles right as the door slides open again. He looks down, just listening to Yuta thank whoever brought it and the door shut again.

"I love you too", Johnny mumbles.

Yuta smiles even though Johnny isn't looking at him. He reaches behind him to the table where he placed their pizza. He picks up one of the slices and brings it to Johnny's mouth.