NCT One-Shots

Perfect On Paper pt.3|RenLe/JenLe

Renjun x Chenle/Jeno x Chenle

Chenle has a new worry. As if he needed more.

For months, he's been so worried about his feelings and Renjun breaking his heart. Not once (until now) has he considered that putting an end to his feelings for Renjun and ending their unofficial flirty-but-totally-shouldn't-be-happening relationship would break Renjuns heart.

It's a hard thing to consider, since Chenle isn't positive he actually means that much to Renjun and that the male even likes him that much but his thoughts have started spiral to the point that he's terrified he's gonna hurt Renjun. He knows Renjun hurt him and that some part of him wants to get him back but his love for the male has hit him at full force. 

He doesn't want anything with Renjun, doesn't want to know if and when Renjun will ever be ready for him, but he's afraid of expressing that. There's a pile of words stacking him in his mind, full of things that need to come to light, and this is just another. He doesn't want to break Renjuns heart. He hopes to God Renjun doesn't like him that much, won't ever like him that much. 

At first, he thought he'd loved Renjun too much because that would make sense for him but now he's wondering if he's being selfish not wanting to burden that responsibility.

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"Do you know what I'm going to say?"

"Do not tell me to talk to him."

"Then I have nothing to say."

Chenle groans. "Jisung."

Even through the camera, Chenle can feel Jisungs piercing gaze. "Seriously, don't you think it's about time? You've been torturing yourself with this forever and your friendship is already strained, even if Renjun doesn't know the details. You're not all in anymore and you don't want to be. Renjun needs to know that. And I'm not saying you will, but for the love of God, handle your feelings for Renjun before starting anything with anybody."

"I don't wanna do this", Chenle mumbles.

"Because you know there's weight to it. All the more reason to do it."

"Fine, fine. How's your love life?"

"Oh."

Chenle raises an eyebrow. "Oh?"

"I kind of...friendzoned them."

Chenles eyes widen as he sits up. "What?"

Jisung sighs. "I got scared. They got along so well and I got into my head that they'd prefer each other of me so I was backtracked. I'm an idiot, I know."

"Take your own advice and talk to them."

"I will. I'm just scared. I get it, I promise I do. I just know how much this thing with Renjun has been bothering you and I feel like you were holding on so tightly but now you're over it and I don't blame you. I just want you to free your mind."

Chenle nods. "I know. Thank you. What did Jeno say about you friendzoning them?"

"He laughed and said he didn't realize I'd gotten dumber over the years."

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"We need to talk."