The gang was meant to meet up at the border in two hours. Seungmin and Chan were already on their way, Haneul having locked the apartment door and windows, isolating herself in the living room.
She tried calling Felix back after discovering the missed call on her phone but he wasn't picking up.
She made sure to leave a message - if he were to see it before reaching the border
She could feel her skin crawl and her stomach turn so much it made her feel sick. She wanted to throw up, anything to make her feel less anxious - anything to fill the numbness inside her
Her eyes dropped as she tried focusing on the tv before her, vision going blurry and then regaining itself again and she couldn't help but feel so weak and helpless
Felix warned her about the sleepless nights and how she would worry until her stomach emptied itself out but she still chose to stay
she chose to love him regardless
but as she sat hovered over the toilet seat, chest heaving up and down and her lunch spilled into the bowl, she couldn't help but wonder what life would be like back in korea
would she have it easier?
Her phone rang, bringing her out of her little self depression state she was in as she grabbed ahold of it and answered it, not sure what to expect
" Neul?"
"yes" she replied out of breath, standing on her feet and rinsing the bitter taste out of her mouth
" are you okay?"
the questioned sounded make believe. She had no reason to not be okay, she was safe, away from her abusive father and with the love of her life. She had a family, but yet she didn't feel like it
she didn't feel real
"yeah, just a little sick" she laughed at her words and made her way back into the living room, phone going static for a split second before the rushed answer came
"we're here, i love you"
"i love you" she rushed back to say just as her phone made the beep of the call ending and she didn't know of he heard her say it or not but she would hope so
he knew either way
and so with the tv playing loudly and her phone held tightly in one hand, Haneul spent the next 48 hours of her life driving herself insane
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(a/n)
Haneul girl get a grip 😭
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