Please Don't Give Up- [Shanexoc]

Chapter 12 Broken nose

Shane sat in the waiting room, has he waited for Ian. That was untill he was distracted by the figure that entered the hospital, Marnie. She walked determinedly to the counter, today was her check up day, yet Maru told her she had to wait, has Harvey was currently whit a paciente. She sighed before turning around seeing the figure she had been avoiding.

Marine: Shane what are you doing here I swear to Yoba if you hurt yourself again!- she started in a blind rage, her nephew wasn't surprised.

Shane: I'm not here because of me Marnie.- her expression switched to a more neutral one.

Marnie: Why are you here?!

Shane: I was playing football whit Ian and he feel face first onto the ice.

Marnie: Ouch.- she said seating down next to Shane - It isn't anything bad is it?

Shane: Could be worse... He broke his nose.- silence followed.

Marnie: So.... That's where you're staying? At the farm?

Shane: Yeah I- he sighed before continuing- I didn't want to make you sadder.

Marnie: Shane you- she was stopped before speaking.

Shane: I know I would. Don't pretend I don't know you cried everyday since I attempted...

Marnie: I wish I was stronger.- she let out- I left you when you needed me the most... I'm sorry Shane. I should've been stronger for you.

Shane: Marnie don't beat yourself down... It's not your fault.

Marnie: Sooo... How are you feeling?

Shane: I'm still very suicidal... But I don't wake up and the first thing I do is self harm.... And for a first time in a while I feel like I'm not burdening anyone... That I'm not alone... Someone finally gets me.- he said his eyes watering- And he has saved my life more then once.... He cares.

Marnie: Ian is a special guy isn't he?

Shane: Yeah... He's a great friend...

Marnie: Not anything more? Cuz Emily sure thinks you two are more.- the younger sighed, he would be lying if he said that he didn't felt something for the other.

Shane: Well at least not yet... I don't want to hurt Ian. He deserves better then me. It's better if we're just friends... Although he will always hold a special place in my heart.

Marnie: Shane darling, don't let your bad thoughts make you lose out on life. What do you got to lose? You think Ian would leave you all alone if you told him?

Shane: I don't know.

Marnie: That's the wrong answer hun.- she said has the youngest entered the waiting room, his nose wrapped in patches- Anyways, whenever, if ever, you want to go back home, I'll welcome you with open arms.

Shane: Thanks Marnie.- the youngest walked next to Shane, him getting up- So is it a nasty scar like mine?- he said whit a smirk.

Ian: Only a small one. Now after that I feel like I deserve not cooking dinner.

Shane: Then you better like frozen pizza.- he said chuckling, has they left the hospital.

Ian: I actually have one in the freezer...

They walked in silence before getting to the house, Shane spoke from the kitchen.

Shane: So is it hard to live away from your parents?

Ian: I mean, not much. I wasn't living whit them in like forever so yeah... And everytime I see them they're just like, why aren't you dating? Why aren't you married? Why don't you have kids already? Like fuck it's suffocating.

Shane: Oh the overbearing parents that did everything when they were young?- he said has he put the pizza in the oven.

Ian: Basically... They don't even ask about what I think, they just think I'm supposed to do it all in my twenties like they did.- the older walked from the hallway, now seating besides Ian.

Shane: Well do you want do you want to get in a relationship some day?

Ian: Yeah... Just think marriage is waaaaay to big of a commitment. I need to be in a long term relationship before that...

Shane: What about kids?

Ian: Eh, one day maybe. But I don't know if I'll have pacients for it until my forties. Oh yeah you have a kid... Well sorta. How's it like?

Shane: I skipped the hard part ya know? So I don't have much to say. But fuck, Jas is the reason I wake up in the morning.

Ian: Makes sense... You ever think you'll get married?- he asked mindlessly, the other chuckled.

Shane: Ian I think for that I have to get a partner first!

Ian: Partner?- he asked cheeking if the other was in fact attracted to anything other then a female.

Shane: Well yeah, I'm not exactly straight... I'm bissexual. Just easier to stay closeted in the town you know?

Ian: Yeah... I totally get you.

Shane: So you're also queer?- the older said has he felt the room.

They both had feelings for each other, but not knowing each other's sexuality was definitely a reason to not act on it. Specially because Shane didn't know that Ian was trans.

Ian: Yup, gay man... Hey out of the blue, how do you feel about trans people?- he asked testing the waters, depending on how the other reacted, he might even come out or act on his feeling's, or he might just stay friend's.

Shane: What about them?... To me there's no difference bettewen trans woman and cis woman, or trans men and cis man and non binary people they're just vibing in their corner they're also cool.- Ian sighed of relief, Shane noticing- Why did you ask? Is there something you want to tell me?

Ian: Yeah actually... But promise me that you won't say a word to ANYONE in the town will you?- the other smiled, nodding

Shane: Pinky promise.- he said holding up his pinky the other doing the same- You didn't talk about all my shit so it's only fair right?

Ian: Yeah... Shane I don't have a testosterone deficiency. Well not in the way you think...  I'm a trans man. And I came to this town because no one knows about my past and here, unlike the city, I feel like here I'm seen like a true man you know?

Shane: Well I don't,but yes, I can see why.... So like your parents are cool whit it?

Ian: Yeah actually... But they made me freeze my eggs before I started T in 'case I wanted a biological child'- the other chuckled.

Shane: Dam, they're really obsessed whit you having children.

Ian: Yup. That comes whit being the first child and them wanting grandkids.

Shane: Can't say I've ever had that pressure... Comes whit giving them low expectations. They never thought I could make great things.

Ian: I don't know if it makes you feel better but...- he said putting his hand on top of the other's - I think you can make great things.- he said staring at the other's eyes that became watery. Shane pulled him into a hug burring his face into the other's shoulder and crying.

Shane: T-thanks for believing in me.

(Life update, yesterday I had my second panic attack of the day in math test and it destroyed me. I was so anxious I pucked and got myself a headache, but still thought of this fanfic to calm me down... Also kinda made a joke to myself that I could now write a worse panic attack)
I hope you enjoyed the chapter if so please comment your thoughts and vote.

Much love!!

-MissevilXD