Please Don't Give Up- [Shanexoc]

Chapter 46 Anxiety

Ian woke up, he couldn't move for the most part, he was stuck in bed after a terrible night. He'd only fell asleep around 5 am, his anxiety kept him up, now he only had woken up at 1 pm, thanks to Jas, who sat on his bed, calling for him. He made an effort to seat up, trying to not look so miserable, it was a hard task and he couldn't tell if he did it.

Jas: Ian! I'm hungry.

Ian: Is it already lunch time?

Jas: Yeah!- the older groaned has he rubbed his eyes.

Ian: Alright give me a second I'll go downstairs.- he asked of the girl, she did so, Ian got up slowly, stumbling downstairs.

He went inside the kitchen, opening the fridge door, finding what Shane had made for him yesterday, heating it up for the girl, making her company before going upstairs and laying down again. He felt awful. He couldn't move, all he wanted was to cry, his anxiety was bad. So he took his meds. That's when suddenly, Jas got inside the room again, seating on the right side of the bed, the older turning to the other side, seeing the girl there. He sat up confused, laying against the the bedframe before asking.

Ian: Why are you here Jas?

Jas: You seamed sad so I wanted to watch cartoons whit you! That always cheers me up when I'm sad!- she replied flipping the channel's.

Well given that I'm gonna be kinda high in a few minutes I guess this is fine.

Ian: Thanks sweetheart.- he added, tucking her in,the girl laying her head against him. An episode or two of a silly show passed by before the girl spoke again.

Jas: Why didn't you eat lunch?

Ian: I wasn't hungry darling.

Jas: Why not?

Ian: Sometimes when I get really anxious it's hard for me to eat. But don't worry sweety.

Jas: Are you anxious cuz of the rumors?-she asked the other feeling his anxiety spike once more, gulping before speaking. She was a child, but she knew a lot and there was no reason to lie or sugar coat.

Ian: Yes.

Jas: Is it true you were a girl?

Ian: Well, not exactly. I was born a girl, but I never felt a girl... I felt like a boy. I am a boy. So I took some medication that made the outside match what I feel... I also changed my name.

Jas: And that's ok?

Ian: Yup.

Jas: So why are you nervous?

Ian: People can be.... Not so understanding. And sometimes when they don't understand something they might mock it. It doesn't mean mocking isn't bad. It is. But sometimes it's just people trying to process their things.

Jas: Then why not teach them?

Ian: W-well...- he stuttered trying to find an answer, he knew the answer he just didn't want to tell it to her. He didn't want to explain what hate crimes were, to protect her from the hard reality that was. It didn't mean it didn't resurge some bad memories. The younger didn't ask further has another episode started playing. The farmer's eyes became heavy, he couldn't keep awake, slowly but surely falling back to sleep.

Later that day, Shane got inside of the house, nothing how it was quiet, very quiet. He went upstairs, finding both Ian and Jas fast asleep. Ian looked pail, probably since he didn't have lunch, Shane assumed it by now. He picked up his kid, from his partner's lap, picking her up and putting her to bed, knowing dam well she wasn't gonna wake up until tomorrow. He went back to his room, hesitating before deciding to wake up his partner.

Shane: Hey my love.- he said slowly and gently shaking him, when the other opened his eyes he kissed his forehead.

Ian: mmHg... What time is it?

Shane: It's 7 pm darling... Want me to get you dinner.

Ian: I'm not hungry.

Shane: C'mon darling, you need to eat otherwise you'll feel has week has today.

Ian: Bring it upstairs.

Shane: Only if you walk whit me for a few minutes.

Ian: Why?

Shane: It's not good for you to be in the same position for that amount of hours. You need to move around, unless you want to have a lot of pain moving when you feel better, you have to do it.

Ian: Fine... Help me up.- he asked, the older doing so. They walked upstairs for a bit, slowly going back and forth until they went back to bed.

Shane: You wanna take a shower today? I could help you if you need it.

Ian: Not today.- he said before the other went downstairs, made dinner and got up, eating whit the other.

Shane: So... I'm thinking Jas should spend sometime whit Marnie tomorrow. I didn't leave lunch made and I know how exausting it can be to be whit Jas and not feeling great..

Ian: Thanks love.

Shane: I love you darling.

Ian: I love you two... You know who told everyone?

Shane: No, it doesn't even make sense... I think someone found out. Maybe when you were at the clinic?

Ian: Fuuuuuuuuuccckkk.

Shane: I'm sorry I made you go there... This wouldn't had happened if I didn't ask you to do it.

Ian: It's fine. You were worried about me...- he said, finishing eating, Shane washed the dishes, before picking up his lover and went upstairs. He laid his husband on the bed,then closing the door and getting in his pijamas.

Shane:  Just cuz Jas isn't here tomorrow it isn't an excuse for you to forget to move around and eat... I'll wake up early and leave you lunch made, but you have to go downstairs and get it ok?- the taller asked laying besides Ian, who cuddled whit him. He laid his head on the other's chest has the older covered him whit the blankets.

Ian: Okaaayyy.- he replied annoying.

Shane: Didn't take you for brat.

Ian: I'm not. But if you keep telling me off like I'm some sort of kid... I know you care but I'm thirdy Shane.

Shane: I won't do it again, sorry.

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-MissevilXD