Please Don't Give Up- [Shanexoc]

Chapter 8 Hospital

It had been a bit over then a day since Shane's suicide attempt. It was currently 10 pm, Shane woke up, feeling something in his right arm, he looked at it, besides noticing the hospital setting meaning, he hadn't been successful, he noticed Ian, in a chair, holding onto his right hand, his face buried in the bed has he slept.

He really cares about me... Fuck now I feel bad.

He thought moving his arm away, waking up Ian in the process. The younger slowly looked at him, taking a minute or two process what he was seeing. When it hit him, Ian jumped out of his seat and onto the other, hugging him tight.

Ian: Oh thank Yoba! - he said burring his face on the other's shoulder, hugging tightly, the older sighed, letting himself enjoy the moment and hugged him back.

Shane: So... You found me uhn?- he said has the other moved away- Can't say I'm surprised... Just why? Why did you do that?- he asked in a sad tone, has if he was begging for a reason to be saved, just one thing that might give him hope.

Ian: I just... You're my friend Shane, I don't want you gone... And Yoba, I know that's selfish, but, please, please just hear me out! Your life has so many potentials, whit a bit of help and some work things could get better! Just please trust me on this.

Shane: Why should I trust you?

Ian: Because I've been there for fucks sake. I've been there where you stood, taken to the hospital because of an attempt and I.. I had someone important in my life take me out of the hole. Please. Let me pay back the universe on this. Worse case scenario you're just avoiding the invitable. If after everything you still want to do it I'll let you.- he said whit a sad face, Shane sighing and giving in. There was something about Ian that made his persuasion more convincing then the other. Either it being what Ian had went through or what emotion's Shane held for him.

Shane: Fine... I guess a few months might not be so bad...

Ian: Thank Yoba...

Shane: Does Jas know I'm in here?

Ian: Yes.

Shane: Does she know why?

Ian: No, all she knows is that Marnie is to heartbroken to come and visit you.

Shane: Ok, great... Great... She doesn't need to know... She's just a kid....

Ian: Yeah... She's stressed tho, whit Marnie constantly crying and you in the hospital she thinks you're really sick.

Shane: Aren't I?- silence followed.

It was true, his mental health was the worse then it ever before... Wich also checks out whit what happened. The silence was deafening, so, the younger spoke.

Ian: Joja mart is offering you completely payed off time of work... A mental health break, if you will say it.... You can still go to work if you want but Harvey is discouraging that.

Shane: If I don't work what am I even going to do? Spend all day in the bar until I get alcohol poisoning?

Ian: You can come hang out whit me.

Shane: Don't you have farm duties tho?- he asked raising an eyebrow the other shrugging.

Ian: Farm life is more flexible then you think. I have sprinklers so I don't need to water the crops, right now it ain't harvesting time so the only thing I have to do is take care of the animals... You could help me whit the chickens!- the older looked at him confused.

Shane: How did you know I like chicken?

Ian: Marnie told me you help out whit them. I figured you might like to do it two.

Shane: I do... - he said before yawning.

They continued talking and talking, until Shane fell asleep yet again thanks to being tired. Ian was also tired, but he couldn't sleep. No. He was to anxious. His loved one's life was dependent on him. He breathed heavily before grabbing his coat and leaving the room. Harvey had trusted him the keys, so he put on the coat and went outside. He stood by the door, leaning on the building, he took a pack of cigarettes out of one of his pockets. Everyone has their vice. That's the truth. Some can't handle their vice, like Shane, but there's people who only indulge out of comfort. He put it in his lips, before trading the pack for a lighter. He lit up, taking into his lungs hot smoke, contrasting against his cold lips and nose. How long was it going to be until Shane gives in? The thought invaded his mind, festering in his brain. Did he bit off then he could chew? Certainly. But was he going to give up on Shane? No. Never. The thought never crossed his mind. At best, he'd hang out whit Shane forever, even make a move on him, at worse? He could enjoy the other's time on earth. He sighed. Ian had to tell him eventually hadn't him? Not only about his feeling's but also about the real reason he came into the valley. His secret. How would even Shane react to it ?... And certainly he had to tell him about it when he told his feeling's. If I he didn't, things could be bad. But it could be bad either way. He sighed.

You shouldn't think about that Ian.

He thought gaining back focus to the current situation. Maybe it would be nice for him to bring Jas to Shane.... After what happened he should maybe spend some time in the farm... He did have a spare bedroom and Marnie was still very annoyed at him. Life is calmer in the farm then in the town. Specially calmer then the joja mart. But Shane should enjoy his time off however he liked. Unless it involved beer. It was understood that he had to stopped. If he really wanted to be truly happy, he should avoid his vices. Or like Ian, only indulge in them when in desperate need of comfort. After all, truly abstaining from this vices, this habits, is nearly impossible.

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Much love!

-MissevilXD