Please Don't Give Up- [Shanexoc]

Chapter 36 Panic attacks

Shane woke up whit the brightness on the room, that and Jas jumping on the bed. She was smiling and and calling him over and over, also waking up the farmer, who groan has he sat up.

Ian: Mmmh... To early....- the older chuckled has he also sat up.

Shane: Good morning to you two.

Ian: Oh yeah morning... Wait Jas?- he asked finally opening his eyes.

Jas: Yeah me! I wanted to ask what's breakfast sorry for waking you up Ian.

Ian: It's fine darling....

Shane: I'll take care of this, you can go back to sleep hun.- he said getting up from bed and going to the door.

Ian: It's fine... I'm hungry either way.. I'll catch up to you two.

Gotta put on some pants, before I got whit y'all, I'm not exactly comfortable enough to walk around whit just my sweater and boxers if the kid's around... Dam how the fuck did mom have the balls to walk around the house half naked? I guess I'll never know.

He thought before putting on some pants and going downstairs. Jas and Shane sat on the table, the girl ate cereals, meanwhile Shane ate a sandwich and drank coffee. The farmer stood back waiting for his coffee to be done.

Shane: Ian, you can lift up stuff now right?

Ian: Has long has it's not heavy... Yeah I'll go back to feeding the animals and stuff, you can go to work in peace.

Shane: Thanks.

Ian: So Jas, it's just us today, what do you want to do?

Jas: Maybe go to the park?... I don't know.

Ian: Alright makes sense... If you have any knew ideas we can do it.- he said, the older getting up and putting his plates on the sink.

Shane: Could you clean that for me?- he asked has he went for a hug, the smaller putting down his own drink.

Ian: Sure.

Shane: By the way.- he whispered- Get some ideas of what you want to do tomorrow will you?... Your birthday should be specialy.

Ian: We'll talk later today alright?- the other pulled away nodding before going upstairs and getting dressed.

Ian knew what he wanted to do. It made him very, very anxious. He was thinking of proposing and, even after their conversation, being almost certain Shane would say yes, he couldn't shake off the other possibility. Just thinking about it got him short breathed. He wanted it to be perfect, to the last second. He tried to not thinking about it much during the day, distracting himself whit Jas. Might has well bound whit her now that he's gonna marry her care giver. In fact, has they sat watching tv, Ian decided to ask. He was crocheting in the couch whit her, she was eating a cake they had made previous today.

Ian: Jas... Remember when I was talking about getting married? When we were at Marnie's place?

Jas: I remember.

Ian: Are you fine whit it?

Jas: I think I told you yeah... You're nice.

Ian: Alright... I'm gonna try and ask tomorrow, but don't tell him alright?

Jas: Of course...

Ian: By the way.- he said has he did the finishing touches on the plush- This is for you.- he said handing the green bunny to the girl.

Jas: Really?!!? It's so pretty!! Thanks Ian!- she said hugging the man, who pet her head.

Ian: You're welcome dear...- the girl pulled away from the hug, hugging the stuff bunny instead- You know we have to decide what to do whit your bedroom, do you have any idea of what you want?

Jas: Mhmmm I don't know... Could the walls be purple?

Ian: Yeah, they can. It's your room now, so it should look how you want.

Jas: I like that... I miss Marnie tho.

Ian: We can go meet whit her now, if she's not busy, what do you think?

Jas: Yeah!! Let's go!!
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They only came back home quite late, has they took off their shoes and coat's they felt the smell that came from the kitchen. Shane, bettwen many of his qualities, was an amazing cook. Jas went upstairs, possibly to play whit her toys,  meanwhile the farmer went to kitchen hugging his partner from behind.

Ian: Yoba, I love you so much.- he said before kissing the other's neck.

Shane: I love you two Ian.... You're one of the most important people in my life...- he said laying his head against his boyfriend's- So have you decided what you want to do tomorrow?

Ian: I'm to anxious to think about it... Maybe have dinner at the saloon and then come back home to have some fun?

Shane: I should probably get Jas to Marnie's place then... I like being loud whit you.- he said feeling the other's hands on his thighs.

Ian: Me too...

I wish I wasn't so nervous... If I can't deal whit this now tomorrow is hell.

He thought before letting go of the other and leaving the kitchen.

Shane: Where are you going? I just finished cooking.

Ian: I need to take my anxiety meds. Like now.

Shane: Ok, love, anything scream for me or text, I'll help you.

Ian: Thanks.. you and Jas go ahead and start eating.

Shane: Alright, I hope you feel better.

Shane was always so kind, he felt better whit him. After going upstairs, he came down, not eating much, this raised red flags for his partner, who after putting his child to bed, came back to their bedroom, closing the door behind him. He saw the younger seating down on the bed, watching tv. He sat besides him, putting his hand on the other.

Shane: Are you alright my love?... You didn't eat much.

Ian: I'm just really really anxious, my heart is beating so fast I can't think or breath.

Shane: What can I do to help you?- he asked comprehensive the other replying.

Ian: Just hug me. Hug me thigh.- he said going to the taller's lap, who did just that, rubbing his partner's back. Then he heard the other cry, that broke the older's heart.

Shane: Does your birthday always makes you this nervous or is it because it's the 30th?

Ian: It's other things... Tell me everything will be fine....I know they will, but I need you to say it.

Shane: Ian, it's going to be fine. It's just a day.... In fact... It's midnight right now... See? It's fine.

Ian: T-thanks.- he said pulling away form the hug, whipping off his tears.

Shane: Hey, happy birthday.- he said smiling before kissing the other, gently.

Ian: Thank you.... God I'm old.

Shane: Mph, then what am I?

Ian: You're a dilf.

Shane: Again whit that? You know soon enough you'll be one too... You are living whit Jas... It's a matter of time.

Ian:I guess you're right...- he sighed.

Shane: Calmer?

Ian: Yes...

Shane: Can you sleep?

Ian: Only if we cuddle.

Shane: Alright...

They laid down, Ian's head was on the other's chest, his leg between his, has Shane watched tv. Ian fell asleep quickly has the other rubbed his back. Soon enough he also fell back into sleep.

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Much love!!

-MissevilXD