Please Don't Give Up- [Shanexoc]

Chapter 37 Asking the big question

Ian woke up whit his alarm, he was lonely again. After he was done whit his responsibilities he was left to fidget. He got the box he had been hiding from the closet. He put it in his pants, deep breathing, today was the day. He spent the morning pacing around before going to the saloon. He had around three/four drinks, but he forgot something. On his meds one drink often felt like two, so it felt like six or eight. He was tipsy. That was the beginning of the disaster. A few hours later, Shane got inside, seating besides his partner, feeling the smell of beer.

Yoba this is not good.

Shane: Hey, how are you darling?

Ian: Heeeeeyyyy.- the older sighed before continued.

Shane: Gus, how many drinks did he have?

Gus: Emily was the one serving him.- the man stared at the girl.

Emily: Oh c'mon it's his birthday.

Shane: How. Many?- he asked annoyed his partner just laughing.

Emily: Now? It's been like ten drinks.

Shane: Ten?!

Gus: That's half has much has you used to drink.

Shane: Gus I'm an alcoholic! And besides that, Ian is on meds that make it hit harder! I'm surprised he's even able to speak!- he sighed, this all triggered him, but he tried to stay cool- Ian let's go.

Ian: wHaT?! bUt It'S mY bIrThDaY!

Shane: Ian please don't make me say it again.

Emily: Geez you're sounding kinda possessive.

Shane: Emily, stop it. I'm just...- he sighed again- If he doesn't come whit me now I'll leave. I can't be around drunk people.- he then looked at his partner- So...?

Ian: I'm CoMiNg!- the farmer said, stumbling away from the seat. Shane, much against what he wanted, let his partner lean against him.

Once home, Ian laid on the couch, Shane was frustrated. He wanted to scream and he wanted to cry. But he kept it cool. For the most part. He went upstairs, to blow off some steam. After laying down for a bit, deep breathing and texting his sponsor he went back downstairs. But he didn't see Ian. Then he noticed the half opened bathroom door, which light was coming out of. He went to the door, noticing the other pucking. He sighed, seating down besides him. Ian's hair was a bit long, it was on his face. The older held back his hard before tying it back.

Ian: T-thanks...- he let out before going back to pucking, the older rubbed his back.

He took care of his boyfriend most of the night, once Ian finally fell asleep, Shane cleaned his mouth, before picking him up, he laid the other in the couch, taking off everything in his pockets to not hurt him. He noticed the box. He wandered what it was but decided to not open it. He covered the other whit a blanket, getting a bucket and putting it nearby. He then moved upstairs, he laid back, staring at the ceiling. Why would the farmer did that? He wasn't a person who normally drank, in fact, he could only remember one instance that the other drank was because of him.

Yoba what did I do? I must have annoyed him or something. Or it's because of Jas? Is it because of her staying?

He sighed, beating himself down over the incident. He would be lying if he said that he didn't want to self harm. But he tried to stop himself. How did he did that? He attempted to completely distract himself from any thoughts. He turned on the tv, having it playing had he played on his phone. Eventually, after a few good hours he fell asleep.
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Ian groaned has he felt the light hit his eyes. His head hurt and he was nauseous, so much so he didn't notice that the taller had passed by until he came back, handing him an aspirin and a cup of water.

Shane: I know how you must be feeling. Have this.

Ian: Shane?- he asked whit his eyes closed has he sat up on the couch.

Shane: Morning to you two.

Ian: Argh...what happened?

Shane: You got drunk.- he said seating down next to him, the younger suddenly catching up to what went down.

Ian: Oh fuck. Fuck...- he sighed burring his face on his knees- I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry. I didn't make you relapse did I?!

Shane:No honey.... It's fine I just... Why did you drink? It isn't like you at all.

Ian: I just, got so anxious.- he said before getting up from the couch, getting his stuff and going to the stairs- Follow me will you?- the other nodded, going upstairs has well, Ian put his down his stuff on the beside table, has the other closed the bedroom door.

Shane: Was it your birthday?- the taller asked has his boyfriend went inside the bathroom, hoping in the shower, not bothering to close the bathroom door.

Ian: Yes and no.- he said has he turned on the water.

Shane: What do you mean?- he asked has the other brushed his teeth has he showered.

Ian: It kimdah dwosent hawe to do whit my biwtday.

Shane: Ian I can't understand you if you have your mouth full.- the older hear the other spit, before gargling some water and turning it off, presumably to wash his hair and body.

Ian: It isn't because of my birthday specifically. It has to do whit what I was doing on my birthday.- he explained has he ran his body through water a final time.

Shane: Were you nervous because of what we were going to do?

Ian: You could say that.- he said has he dried himself whit a towel.

Shane: So you were nervous to have sex?

Ian: No... - he said has he went to his closet picking up some clothes.

Shane: I know when we meet what drew me to you was you being all mysterious and shit, but I'm trying to understand what made you so anxious so please be more straight forward.- Ian's heart beat faster just thinking about it, that's when he admitted defeat.

Ian: I feel to anxious to say but... It's because of the box on my bedside table.

Shane: The one you had on your pocket last night?

Ian: Y-yup!

Shane: Can I see what's inside?- he asked picking up the box, the other whit his back to him.

Ian: Yes.- he felt his legs weaken but he tried his best to pretend like the anxiety wasn't overwhelming him. The older opened the box, being faced whit the reason.

Shane: A-A mermaid pendant?- he asked surprised the other's breathing shallow.

Ian: Y-yeah.

Shane: You do know what it means?!

Ian: Y-yup... I-I had s-something ready to s-say but chickened o-out... L-listen, I don't expect you t-to s-say anything. I-I know I-I fucked u-up. So i-igno- he said looking back, seeing Shane whit it around his neck.

Shane: But what if I say yes?...

Ian: Y-you do?

Shane: Yeah...- he said getting closer, holding onto his hand- Ian I've been madly in love whit you since you came into my life and helped me get away from myself. I've never had such a deep bond in my life and honestly. I'd love to marry you. I don't blame you for not being able to ask me yourself, hell I've been thinking of proposing for a good while and it never seamed like the right time... But I think it is... So, if you still want to, will you marry me?- the other chuckled, his eyes watering.

Ian: Y-yeah!- he said before kissing the other.

Shane: Let's celebrate this will we?

Ian: Yup.- he said before being picked up from the ground, Shane picking him up and throwing him in the bed.

To be continued...

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