Please Don't Give Up- [Shanexoc]

Chapter 26 Coming out

After a long day of work, Shane finally walked home, unaware of what rumors have been spreading around the town. But before he could reach his destination, he went over to Marnie's place, bringing some gummies for his goddaughter. He knocked on the door, Marnie opening it smiling, after a quick chat, he went inside, finding Jas around the fire place.

Shane: Hey Jas!- he said smiling seating next to the fire- I brought gummy worms!- he said handing them to the girl, who took it away from him.

Jas: Thanks!...- a few moments of silence passed- Where have you been?- the older sighed before he began talking.

Shane: I have been sleeping somewhere else.

Jas: Is Marnie mad at you?!

Shane: No, no darling, we're fine... I chose that... I'm seeing someone and after getting sick I thought it was better Marnie took care of you then me.... I have been talking to the person and, if you'd like, you could start passing the weekend whit us. It's up to you really.

Jas: Who's house is it?- she asked curious.

Shane: My boyfriend's. You know him, it's Ian the farmer.

Jas: Oh!- she said before looking at him- He's nice... Wait can two boys date?- she asked, clearly Shane's relationship status wasn't a worry to her, the older smiled.

Shane: Well yes, two boys, two girls or a boy and a girl are all fine.

Jas: Ok... Where I'm going to sleep?

Shane: There's a spare bedroom, you'll sleep there.

Jas: Cool...

Shane: Anyways kiddo, I really need to go home, Ian was sick yesterday and I need to help him cook dinner.

Jas: Alright! See ya!- she said before hugging the other, Shane spoke up after pulling away from the hug.

Shane: See ya.

He got up and left the house, walking to his. Even if it was still cold, the snow had all melted away, Shane sighed, this mean his birthday was close. Getting older and older, time will never stop. He sighed has he entered the house, putting on a smile even tho he was feeling rather crappy.

Shane: Hi!- he said closing and locking the door, Ian coming from the kitchen, whit a panicked look.

Ian: Oh my Yoba, Shane you're here! You heard what's going on?!

Shane: No?... What happened?

Ian: There's rumors that we're dating.- the older sighed.

Shane: Good thing I told Jas today...

Ian: So what, we're going out whit our relationship? Cuz like, Emily's death stare is killing me.

Shane: Why is she giving you the death stare?

Ian: Shane, she clearly has a crush on you.

Shane: SHE DOES?!!

Ian: Yup.

Shane: Well that's something isn't it.... Sorry for putting you in the spot light, I know you hate it to have everyone speaking about it and getting stared at.- the younger sighed before going back to the kitchen, the taller following.

Ian: It's fine, it's not your fault... Just.... You want us to be out? You still haven't answered.

Shane: Yeah.- he said going behind the other and hugging him, resting his head on the younger's shoulder- I want to be able to tell you I love you everywhere.

Ian: Me two....

Shane: Are you better?...

Ian: Yeah... My body still hurts, so thanks for handling the farmwork this morning... I got an headache but the fever is considereble lower... Which is good since finally I'm gonna have my hysterectomy this weekend.

Shane: You're going be operated on this weekend?

Ian: Yeah... It's in the city, gotta stay like two nights to get better... If you want Jas to stay here over the weekend she can, just please feed my animals.

Shane: Of course... Mind if I ask how long can't you do certain things?

Ian: Well first few days I'm probably going to be bedridden cuz of the stitches, afterwards I won't be able to lift anything heavy for a while, no more lifting for me, I guess. I also can't have sex for about 6 weeks.

Shane: Alright, that's going to be hard for you.

Ian: You calling me a slut?

Shane: Well yeah and no... I meant the lifting, I know you like to lift and do farm work... But yeah.- he chuckled- Not having sex for 6 weeks seams quite a challenge for us... Both of us just went back to it and dam...

Ian: I get you.- he said chuckling- That's why we gotta enjoy it while we can.- he said smiling.

Shane: But not tonight right?! Cuz I have to wake up early tomorrow and I'm really tired.

Ian: Nope. Tomorrow night? After a nice dinner at the saloon?

Shane: Sounds great... I'm guessing you can openly flirt, like the night you finally gave me your name?

Ian: Yeah... Let's not do it in the restroom please I like my privacy... Besides our bed is just amazingly comfy.

Shane: I love you.- he said before kissing the other- I probably shouldn't had done that..- he pointed out chuckling - Forgot for a moment you're still sick.

Ian: You'll be fine.- he said before kissing the other again, before going to make dinner whit the taller- Besides it was you who got me sick, I doubt you get it twice.

Shane: Ian, you know my luck, I probably would.

They continued to chat before they ate, it was nice to have someone to share dinner whit, yet Shane couldn't shake off his paranoia. This paranoid feeling infecting his mind, convincing him that he would somehow screw it up. He always does right? Nothing is forever, all is temporary, now or later he would leave him. But if it was to leave he'd rather it being on his terms. He catched himself in his thoughts, realzing his intrusive thoughts were trying to convinced him to do relationship suicide. He couldn't let himself sabotage yet another relationship, specially one so important to him. Even tho he had started therapy right now, he hadn't gotten any reasons to not completely destroy himself other then his relationships. And his brain being it's depressed self, isntead of doing the hard work to better himself, he wanted to ruin them. He sighed.

Good thing next session is close... I really need help whit this.

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Much love!!

-MissevilXD